You did notice how fucking weird the majority of people actually are right?
It is just I do not have any friends, my father used to ask me all the time If i had friends or not. Because he supposedly has many. It really hurts me that I am so lonely.
I'm sorry you're going through this. I wish people were more accomodating to autistic people. I've always been isolated and "weird" because I'm autistic.
Yeah, i am social outcast almost wherever I go. It is small hell, I do not know if people want to hurt me or just joke around. I used to be victim of bullying of many people, I am still bit in denial about this, I do have cPTSD after so many years of violence and fear in my school. Nowhere to hide, I was scared about my life many times.
Small things also make me feel much worse, everything just causes me stress. It is horrible being alive. I understand it is hard to carry on when you are tired of everything. I wish you the best, whatever happens.
fuck life, I just tried to ctb but cannot, I guess suicide is not for me. I will have to wait for ww3 or meteorite to kill me, SI is such bs.
Please don't say that…You are not weird, it's just this horrible worlds' fault we feel this way. You shouldn't beat yourself up for the way you are. I hope you find some tranquility, i wish you all the best.
Thank you, really appreciate your comment
