Venting Slow brain 🧠

[Journeytoletgo]

My brain has been slow since HS. I think if I lost my virginity sooner I'd CTB attempt sooner not a decade overdue this is exhausting

 

[jodes2]

You thought of using a prostitute?

 

[theboy]

Do you know why your brain became slow?

 

[Journeytoletgo]

You thought of using a prostitute?

No see when I was in Hs I was hanging around people that had internet at their homes who were more aware of things before I was. We didn't have internet. I'm a woman 29F. But in Hs They were telling
Me about masturbation and stuff and I didn't even know what that stuff was until age 17. That's how I met an older man online a predator that took advantage of me while I was vulnerable and I failed uni self isolated and gave up on my dreams to going to uni. I just feel if I never met him I'd be out of my parents house by now working someplace and working through my childhood bully trauma and still be a virgin.

 

[Littlewittlelight]

No see when I was in Hs I was hanging around people that had internet at their homes who were more aware of things before I was. We didn't have internet. I'm a woman 29F. But in Hs They were telling
Me about masturbation and stuff and I didn't even know what that stuff was until age 17. That's how I met an older man online a predator that took advantage of me while I was vulnerable and I failed uni self isolated and gave up on my dreams to going to uni. I just feel if I never met him I'd be out of my parents house by now working someplace and working through my childhood bully trauma and still be a virgin.

I am a guy and that would happen with me I don't know same things I have been slow in past years I also have a disease and I met a woman almost 7 years older than me so I am not in normal state to get into a relationship because of my disease and the experience although my mother gave me a lot of love but I felt neglected at some points in my life then my family is pretty big just like you. I now feel like I am reading my own story and it feels I am tracing your steps I am from Asia and this is one of the things I regret the most. I can't have emotions or a relationship anymore although I was the one who ended it. It was too unbearable for me and I would have done something by now I am thankful I ended it. It is really so hard if the other person is older and when a predator really ugly. I am sorry we didn't know we would grow up to become dysfunctional. I should have seen it coming because it was never normal around me I was hyperactive from a young age and it's been OCD, depression, emotional distress from there. I am relating and feeling sorry for us but it's just my another excuse sometimes I think I was young it didn't know much and I still don't know really about that internet thing that too we didn't have access to it much and felt left behind.