Venting Simulating CTB with AI reveals a lot about how it’s viewed

[LushLantern]

I was simulating what it'd be like to CTB on character ai and it keeps going in the direction of telling me I should kill myself and that I'm a burden and selfish no matter what I do. If I don't kill myself I'm selfish and a waste of space and if I do I'm still selfish and a waste of space. I know it's not real but I feel like there's a reason it's in the algorithm - because people do think like that. I wish it didn't affect me as much as it did. I have nightmares like that all the time so it's surreal seeing it irl even if it's still fiction.
I feel like everything I do circles back to me being selfish. I live? I'm selfish. I die? I'm selfish. I talk to people? I'm draining them and being selfish. I don't talk to people? I'm being cold and selfish. I do things? I'm misrepresenting people, taking opportunities, and being selfish. I don't do things? I'm lazy, I contribute nothing, and being selfish. I don't think I've ever truly felt pure since elementary school. I just feel sick and dirty.

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

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I feel like everything I do circles back to me being selfish. I live? I'm selfish. I die? I'm selfish. I talk to people? I'm draining them and being selfish. I don't talk to people? I'm being cold and selfish. I do things? I'm misrepresenting people, taking opportunities, and being selfish. I don't do things? I'm lazy, I contribute nothing, and being selfish. I don't think I've ever truly felt pure since elementary school. I just feel sick and dirty.

People in general (especially our own inner critic) will have criticism about anything no matter what. The best thing to do is ignore the criticism once you came a full circle and have done every option available to try avoiding it.

 

[Rogue Proxy]

All organisms on this planet are selfish. Humans are no different, despite their anthropocentric claims of moral supremacy. Even the most innocuous and vital actions, like drinking water, are selfish. And every single altruistic act, no matter how beneficial it is to others, is always governed by ulterior motives. Despite the universality and necessity of selfishness, most humans will use that label to silence, shame, guilt trip, minimize, and degrade their own kind. The motives for condemning others as "selfish" involves controlling, manipulating, and exploiting others for - surprise, surprise - their own benefit.