Silly thing that takes my mind off suicidal thoughts

[BlueButterfly19]

Last week was having a really rough week. My mental health was declining so bad, lots of suicidal thoughts, only got around 2 hours total sleep over several days. Used a mental health day off work to catch up on sleep. It's kind of silly but I found a thing that keeps me distracted enough to push through and makes me happy, if temporarily. I learned about Picky Pads and ordered some off Etsy. I have a minor skin picking issue but I mostly bought it because the pads looked so cute and needed something to distract myself. I can spend around 8 hours or more on just one pad. Don't know if it will help anyone else but just thought I'd share. I get so focused on picking at my picky pad that existential dread is kept at bay at least in the moment.

 

[Warlord's Pulse]

Rare moments when I'm enjoying someone's company, yeah mostly these moments that my mind let go of suicidal thoughts
In minor importance, when I play a game I really like, but the last time I've felt this was when Resident Evil 4 Remake launched, more than a year ago, so...

 

[BlueButterfly19]

Rare moments when I'm enjoying someone's company, yeah mostly these moments that my mind let go of suicidal thoughts
In minor importance, when I play a game I really like, but the last time I've felt this was when Resident Evil 4 Remake launched, more than a year ago, so...

I sometimes cope with video games too, though I'm not a huge video gamer. The only kinds of games I can really get into are pokemon and Stardew Valley. But even then sometimes anhedonia gets in the way of me getting much joy from playing video games.