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raindrops
Someday, eventually
- Mar 29, 2020
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I'm thinking about doing it 100% this time, finally tomorrow I will try my hardest to take a walk to the cliff to scope the area.
Apologies if I don't but deep down I know this is the way I will go.
I don't want to get old, or die alone with no partner, no children. I'm missing my chances and have missed so many now life is pointless.
He's all I want, it's not co-dependency. It is love, it's destroying me, he called me earlier and I said "love you" then I had to apologise for saying it... his eyes roll and didn't say it back. I can't do it anymore. I have Monday or Wednesday as my option.
Also writing a letter to him now, he's the reason. He said to me a few months ago the girl he met gave him confidence and helped him.
No one gave me confidence, they all destroyed mine. No one helped me, I have no one anyway.
So how exactly do you go head first? I read fall backwards or run and jump or casually walk off the cliff. How then is that head first, head first doesn't seem possible.
Apologies if I don't but deep down I know this is the way I will go.
I don't want to get old, or die alone with no partner, no children. I'm missing my chances and have missed so many now life is pointless.
He's all I want, it's not co-dependency. It is love, it's destroying me, he called me earlier and I said "love you" then I had to apologise for saying it... his eyes roll and didn't say it back. I can't do it anymore. I have Monday or Wednesday as my option.
Also writing a letter to him now, he's the reason. He said to me a few months ago the girl he met gave him confidence and helped him.
No one gave me confidence, they all destroyed mine. No one helped me, I have no one anyway.
So how exactly do you go head first? I read fall backwards or run and jump or casually walk off the cliff. How then is that head first, head first doesn't seem possible.