Well tried for 3 months to see if it would work see if I could get better CTB is all I can think about I just don't want to be here meant to see my drugs counsellor every 2 weeks haven't heard a peep from her since the 22nd may and the community treatment guy didn't show again at my home for our appointment just more people showing me that I don't matter I'm done trying gonna stop taking my venlafaxine tomorrow fuck the lot of them they don't give a shit about me
Hey cazza!!
This is a reminder that u're not casted aside. I'm worried about ur situation still but I'm truly delighted to know someone i could relate to. And I would give u the best listen I could if u wanna talk to us.
I don't always have the best availability but i won't ignore ur posts or pms on purpose. I'll try to keep judgemental statements and pushing words at a minima :)
However, u seem to have two separate issues: The feeling of being neglected, and a problem with your therapy. For the latter Im not saying or suggesting it's "your problem". I could relate to how our mental healthcare have failed us. As from what i experienced, medical treatments should be taken with extra care. Things end up either too ineffective, or too expensive, or too long to wait for. There's factor of luck tho. in terms of searching for treatments, but i would have u consider the possibility that your current choice might not suit u.
I went through a couple of poorly-configured treatments myself, in which the doctor or physician or whatever significantly lacked patience and agent, and were simply too busy/lazy to care... Those never didn't end up in a total mess. (not to mention I wasted too much money, they'd better have robbed me than have given me those, bc in that case I could've called the police!) I'd say that without frequent intervention and adjustments, those meds could be too risky and prone to side-effects or poisoning.
As a fellow wayfinder instead of professional I totally respect your choices to drop out of ur current treatment. However, I wouldn't advise cutting off ur dosage immediately bc the withdrawal-effect can be painful. Gradually decreasing ur dosage would be optimal. If u're unsure u could ask ai chatbots about this.
It's very desperate situation overall, yet from the look of things, there could still be a chance u haven't entirely lost hope in recovery, and maybe u'll try to find yourself some alternative treatments. Do ask yourself if that's genuinely the case, I'm not suggesting and dictating if that is, or isn't. Answer that to yourself and there's no need to compensate anyone else's expectations with that answer. U're not given "look-on-the-bright-side" lectures or blamed to be "pro-life" for either way.
Take care out there, mate. We're expecting ur updates <3