SI kicking in only when I’m home?

[deedeme]

I was on a bridge today and I looked down. I imagined myself jumping, couldn't do it because I wasn't alone and I haven't made any plans yet.

However, I was so sure that I could do it at that moment. I was looking down, imagining the impact, the adrenaline build up that one may have, the shock while falling, but I felt nothing.

When I'm home and I recreate the scene in my mind I get anxious, and it makes me reconsider everything. Why is that?

 

[allthatimsaying]

My guess is fully based on assumptions, but it may be your comfort zone. Your house is where you lived most of your life, so your mind unconsciously associates your house with life. Since you're there, your mind is creating obstacles (your anxiety) so that you keep living and give up.

It's a kind of survival instinct. Just go for it (if you want it).