Should I report my ex for emotional abuse? I tried to kill myself 4 times in that relationship, I put myself at the hospital one of them

[sweetsorrow_]

I'm not longer thinking about them anymore, but the damage they did to me is never fully gone. I just, idk, want to feel validated and get her to pay for what she did to me. Almost two years. I'm so scared because I stalked her online for another year because of traumatic bound after we broke up (the last time, we came back together 3 times). Idk, I'm scared