Wakawaka
Student
- Dec 10, 2020
- 153
I havent been diagnosed with anything because none of the doctors would talk/listen/believe me when we spoke
Regardless i've been on 3 or so different ssri's, the only one i remember is prozac
When i take ssri's I can generally feel the effect within a hour. This can range from feeling nothing (as in they didnt seem to do anything), sometimes i might feel what I would describe as normal and generally less depressed than normal, often i feel like my emotions are being suppressed, like Im really upset about something but I cant express that emotion and its honestly aggravating. sometimes they cause suidical episodes. sometimes i just become uncaring and act like an asshole to my friends
I dont remember the other 2 but this doctor gave me this one ssri (maybe started with a s?) and i immediately got muscle spasms and had to stop. since then i stopped taking ssris but im so tired of feeling like this everyday. I tried taking over the counter mood stabilizers and they almost react the same as ssris. sometimes it doesnt feel like anything, sometimes i feel like im not allowed to feel how I should feel about whats happening around me, sometimes the mood stabilzers make me a bit manic
My partner cant deal with my depression. not in the sense that im ruining the relationship but that me just being depressed seems to make them not want to be around me, that issue aside, i think we're about to break up, i took some mood stabilizers before the conversation(im on day2 of taking them) and i dont really feel anything about it really. im sure when it wheres off i'll feel awful about potentially losing someone i love.
I dont understand what im supposed to do anymore. im thinking about ctb this week. i used to drink heavily but cut back. i wanted to replace it with smoking since my partner smokes hookah but, why bother if we wont be together anymore
Regardless i've been on 3 or so different ssri's, the only one i remember is prozac
When i take ssri's I can generally feel the effect within a hour. This can range from feeling nothing (as in they didnt seem to do anything), sometimes i might feel what I would describe as normal and generally less depressed than normal, often i feel like my emotions are being suppressed, like Im really upset about something but I cant express that emotion and its honestly aggravating. sometimes they cause suidical episodes. sometimes i just become uncaring and act like an asshole to my friends
I dont remember the other 2 but this doctor gave me this one ssri (maybe started with a s?) and i immediately got muscle spasms and had to stop. since then i stopped taking ssris but im so tired of feeling like this everyday. I tried taking over the counter mood stabilizers and they almost react the same as ssris. sometimes it doesnt feel like anything, sometimes i feel like im not allowed to feel how I should feel about whats happening around me, sometimes the mood stabilzers make me a bit manic
My partner cant deal with my depression. not in the sense that im ruining the relationship but that me just being depressed seems to make them not want to be around me, that issue aside, i think we're about to break up, i took some mood stabilizers before the conversation(im on day2 of taking them) and i dont really feel anything about it really. im sure when it wheres off i'll feel awful about potentially losing someone i love.
I dont understand what im supposed to do anymore. im thinking about ctb this week. i used to drink heavily but cut back. i wanted to replace it with smoking since my partner smokes hookah but, why bother if we wont be together anymore
Last edited:
