Help Should I ctb the day before my father's birthday?

[Boudika]

I intended to ctb today, but I just remembered that my father's birthday is tomorrow. I don't know what to do - on the one hand, I don't feel like agonizing over the next few days waiting until it's far enough away from his birthday to not spoil his special day. On the other hand, I don't want to ruin the joy of celebrating his birthday for him, even if he is abusive towards me. What do you guys think about this? Would it be immoral to ctb the day before my own father's birthday?

 

[アホペンギン]

I would say if you doubt about ctb near any birthdays, even if the birthday is of someone who was abusive towards you, then you should consider ctb later. Sometime where there aren't any special holidays or occasions because those days will be associated with your passing. Its up to you but I advise not to ctb near his birthday.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that people should be able to leave this world whenever they wish to, nobody is obligated to continue existing here for even a second longer than they want to, it's completely up to you when to leave this existence.

 

[Costrecce]

I mean if he is abusive....but you gotta do what feels most comfortable with you. Follow your instinct

 

[wait.what]

I think a lot depends on your feelings about your father, and whether your sense of responsibility toward him comes from a place of genuine compassion or from old patterns of trauma and secret-keeping.

This is not some kind of pass/fail test, I hope that's clear. You can choose to ctb whenever & however you want. I just wish peace to you as you wrangle with these powerful emotions. May you be able to sort through them and find the best path for yourself going forward.

 

[MyLifeisHell]

It certainly would send a powerful message. I think you know what that message is. The question is whether you are comfortable sending that message or not. A few days will pass before your know it.

I think a lot depends on your feelings about your father, and whether your sense of responsibility toward him comes from a place of genuine compassion or from old patterns of trauma and secret-keeping.

This is not some kind of pass/fail test, I hope that's clear. You can choose to ctb whenever & however you want. I just wish peace to you as you wrangle with these powerful emotions. May you be able to sort through them and find the best path for yourself going forward.

As a brief hijack, I don't think I've seen you around in a while. Welcome back (so to speak).

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Don't do it today. You might feel guilty about it tomorrow if you do.

 

[borntosuffer]

Don't do it today. You might feel guilty about it tomorrow if you do.

if OP did it today and succeeded then they wouldn't have to worry about feeling guilty tomorrow

 

[polka slide]

personally im very petty so if I could ctb a day before an abusive persons bday I would, but also if it feels wrong and if u feel like u shouldn't then don't.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

if OP did it today and succeeded then they wouldn't have to worry about feeling guilty tomorrow

and that exactly is my point, lol.