Help Should I call my best friend?

[kindawannacrylol]

I've decided i'm going to hang but i don't want to be alone while doing it. Previously i've attempted overdoses and wrist cuttings and I usually do those in my bath and the warmth gives me comfort but it won't be the same when i hang. I want to call one of my best friends while i'm doing it. But i don't want to traumatise her. I just want to feel like i have someone with me and that even in my last moments i won't be alone.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Talking without access 2 air could be hard tho. I want to do a zoom job interview with a shotgun barrel in my mouth.

 

[Apricity]

I wouldn't. She might call it in, and/or it could damage her psychologically

 

[kindawannacrylol]

Talking without access 2 air could be hard tho. I want to do a zoom job interview with a shotgun barrel in my mouth.

I don't mean while i'm hanging, i mean the moments up to it i should've specified

 

[Dear Agony]

What if she calls someone and can find you though?... They could find you still alive and you'd be left in a vegetative state. I wouldn't risk it.
Maybe play a video of her or a voice message from her?

 

[motel rooms]

I want to do a zoom job interview with a shotgun barrel in my mouth.

Okay, that's just hot

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Okay, that's just hot

We're getting gay married if you give me a shotgun.

 

[IWantToGoFast]

I've decided i'm going to hang but i don't want to be alone while doing it. Previously i've attempted overdoses and wrist cuttings and I usually do those in my bath and the warmth gives me comfort but it won't be the same when i hang. I want to call one of my best friends while i'm doing it. But i don't want to traumatise her. I just want to feel like i have someone with me and that even in my last moments i won't be alone.

I've struggled with the exact same question. But I scrapped the idea because I don't want to leave somebody with a possible traumatising experience. I failed a hanging recently, before this there was one person that new what I was going to do. It didn't make things any harder or any easier really. I carried my plan methodically to the end.
I'm starting to think that all this wishes, tasks, tribulations are generated by SI in an attempt to make things harder and inspire some hope. Basically me sabotaging my own CTB.

 

[PeaceDeathLove]

I wouldn't. She might call it in, and/or it could damage her psychologically

Unfortunately the passing is likely to have a material impact regardless... Speaking from personal experience

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that you do not want to be alone, but personally I would not do it, because I would be worried about being found too early if someone knew about what I was doing. I agree about the fact that it could be traumatic.

 

[doloroushaze]

This is just my opinion but involving anyone who isn't ready to die themself in your suicide mission is a bit cruel. Especially if you're close. The conversation leading up to your attempt will stick with her for as long as she's alive, meanwhile you'll be gone and it won't really make a difference to you. Doesn't seem worth it.
And maybe hold off on doing anything rash if you need someone's presence to comfort you into it.

 

[doesntevenmatter]

I agree with the user above me whole-heartedly, and everyone else in here. My advice would be to maybe look for a partner? There's a thread here that allows you to do exactly that. I know that's a touchy subject and it's definitely not for everyone, especially because of how many things that can go wrong, but some have found success doing it including members here. I just think it would be better to involve someone who has the same plans as you rather than someone who loves and cares for you and probably won't completely understand. Like the user above said, although waiting can suck it is extremely imperative to be prepared and comfortable with your decision. If having someone with you makes you the most comfortable, then I definitely suggest at least looking into that when you're ready.

 

[motel rooms]

We're getting gay married if you give me a shotgun.

No need for marriage, I just wanna have some fun with your lil bent gun.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

No need for marriage, I just wanna have some fun with your lil bent gun.

Wow, that's so fucking creepy.

 

[motel rooms]

Wow, that's so fucking creepy.

It really is. Creepy & sad. I apologize to OP for derailing their thread