Shotgun: Am I doing it right?

[ItsOverGopher]

Today is the day I think I will end my life. I have poor social skills, I'm lacking in energy and motivation, I'm easily stressed out by life and always forget to do some basic chores/tasks. It feels like people are becoming more selfish and materialistic, thus a true friendship/romantic relationship seems impossible in combination with my previous attributes. The only people I have in my life are my parents, and I think they are bad people for a variety of reasons. I have felt this way for years, going back to age 12-13. At 24, I want out.

After doing some research, I am pretty deadset on using a shotgun, as it seems to have the highest lethality rate of any method. I made the purchase for a shotgun and rounds, and am planning to end it this evening. I want to make sure I am doing this correctly, as the last thing I want is to suffer, or survive and live an even worse life.

My method is this: Use a 12 gage shotgun (Mossberg Maverick 88 Cruiser) with buckshot (plastic shotshells, 2.75 00), and aim it at the back of my mouth, aiming upwards towards brain stem. As I see it, this method should result in death near instantly, if not immediate. My questions:

Does this methodology sound correct? If not, how so?
I know there is recoil with using a high powered gun, what should I expect/prepare for in advance?
Is there anything I am missing from this method?
Any other pointers?

This is the first time I will be buying/using a gun, so I apologize if these are very basic questions. Thanks for any input, its truly appreciated

 

[Macedonian1987]

It's very unwise to attempt suicide with a gun if you never ever fired a gun before. Or with a new gun you never used before, not knowing it's recoil and how the gun behaves when fired.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

U only feel the recoil if u practice shooting at a range

Recoil doesn't affect the aim or shot

In a ctb attempt u will be unconscious before the recoil hits

But I recommend lots of practice dry firing and with ammo

It's flinching before pulling trigger that is the problem

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

@ItsOverGopher sounds like you have it figured out. It's not pretty but as far as pain and effectiveness go it's first class.

 

[moin]

im here for you if u wanna talk about anything <3

 

[Flubber]

@ItsOverGopher

Are you doing this because you feel that in the absence of friendships and romantic relationships, you need to end your life?