Venting Shes gonna leave me.

[nopurposeinanything]

me and my favorite person are arguing right now. I know she's gonna leave me and she's so mad at me for i dont even know why anymore. She's being dry and just rude. She has so much other freinds and I dont even know why the fuck she talks to me—does she like the attention or something?? Im genuinely so upset and I know i dont really mean anything to her anyway. She thinks im ignoring her but im fucking not. I fucking told her I cant lose her, and you know what she says??? she says "why is that?" ???? why the fuck do you think? Obviously she dosent feel the same way I do i guess. She says I ignore her but she plays roblox all the time and dosent even think to reply to me, so. She dosent even believe anything I say. The worst part is, I can't even fucking cry because of my antidepressants. All I want to do is cry so bad and I just can't. Why dosent anyone stay? Why does everyone leave me after a while? am I boring? am I annoying? I dont know whats wrong with me. Why does no one stay? this is why I need to kill myself. I can't fucking do this.

 

[jeevasO-o]

Omg I'm in the same situation excatly same situation with my irl I think best friend I don't know I don't even think we're best friends like she was my favorite person too but I don't know what to feel anymore. I know I'm probably almost nothing in her life

 

[Karrikin]

I'm no expert —quite the opposite actually. But I mean, for these sort of things isn't communication what's important? She's not telling you, you don't know, etc. It seems very one sided on who cares and its a shame your efforts are treated like that. But, even still I can't/wont personally say that's 100% intentional (though it seems like it.) Besides, has it always been like this? If she's your favorite person there has to be a reason why. Also, I personally wouldn't immediately go for self termination and blame until getting that from her. I wish you the best though and stay strong.

 

[stinky_joe]

Accept it, shes never gonna be the way you want her to be. Shes never going to give you the affection and attention you wish to be given. I dont know how it was before but from now on you need to stop hoping for things that will never come. I also knew a girl like this and she herself told me that she would never ever love me like I love her. Then I cut my contact with her and never spoke to her again. Not just what she said but how she treated me that time made me realize i was working very fucking hard for something impossible as if I was trying to push a wall expecting it to move. It hurt. It hurt so damn much. I kept thinking about her and I still do time to time. It still hurts but if I were to keep trying I would be in a way worse and also humiliating position. You need to realize that you WONT get anything in return right now no matter how good you treat that person. Dont try to hold onto someone whos trying to walk away because as soon as you let go of them they will leave you. You cant keep holding on forever. If you try, you will only hurt yourself more and more. You need to let go off her and stand strong on your feet. Maybe in the future youll come across someone who is not gonna run away from you, instead they will be there with you through hard times. Even if you dont come across someone like that, youll be much better standing on your own than trying to hold someone so they dont run away. You are not the problem. They are.

 

[chaewon]

U

Accept it, shes never gonna be the way you want her to be. Shes never going to give you the affection and attention you wish to be given. I dont know how it was before but from now on you need to stop hoping for things that will never come. I also knew a girl like this and she herself told me that she would never ever love me like I love her. Then I cut my contact with her and never spoke to her again. Not just what she said but how she treated me that time made me realize i was working very fucking hard for something impossible as if I was trying to push a wall expecting it to move. It hurt. It hurt so damn much. I kept thinking about her and I still do time to time. It still hurts but if I were to keep trying I would be in a way worse and also humiliating position. You need to realize that you WONT get anything in return right now no matter how good you treat that person. Dont try to hold onto someone whos trying to walk away because as soon as you let go of them they will leave you. You cant keep holding on forever. If you try, you will only hurt yourself more and more. You need to let go off her and stand strong on your feet. Maybe in the future youll come across someone who is not gonna run away from you, instead they will be there with you through hard times. Even if you dont come across someone like that, youll be much better standing on your own than trying to hold someone so they dont run away. You are not the problem. They are.

U are strong as fuck lol damn