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[Yomyom]

I have Sleep apnea➡ sleep apnea make me to gain weight➡ gain weight increases my sleep apnea➡to loose weight I have to sleep good➡to sleep good I have to loose weight

One word- irony!

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I have always suffered from existential depression.
The only thing I found that helped was booze.
Twenty five years of alcohol abuse destroyed my health and my life.
This led me to further depression.
I'd so love a beer or six right now.

 

[sadghost]

I'm sad, I cope by restricting, I get so hungry I overeat/binge, I feel guilty, I feel sad, repeat

 

[Brink]

Therapy and med's made everything worse for me;
I want to 'recover' and feel better;
I self-medicate with toxins - short-term relief, long-term problems;
"Brink, you need therapy and/or meds".

 

[lostangel]

I'm not sure if I'm participating in the ''circles'' correctly but I'll give it a shot.

I see a workout video on youtube.
I get reminded that I have a weak skinny body.
I do the workout.
I eat well for a day.
I get sad or get depressed.
I stop doing well.
The cycle repeats.

 

[kinzokukae]

i'm perpetually bored
i look for a game that looks interesting
i get bored looking for games and stop
rinse, repeat (,:

 

[maru.]

I'm fat.
That is not the main cause, but it does contribute heavily to my depression.
Eating is one of the main things that still make me feel good.
I eat a lot.
I get fatter every day.
I get more depressed.

Also, i watch a lot of pornography.
I might have fried my dopamine receptors beyond fucking repair at this point.
I have a hard time feeling happy, feeling pleasure.
So i watch more.
And i get more depressed.
It's getting more and more boring every time, i even feel sad when watching it sometimes.

Life's a bitch and then you die.

 

[CalmStrikeofMercy]

I have bad genetics.
I try to forge relationships.
They express homical ideation because of my bad genetics.
These people are everywhere and not always easy to identify.
I resign myself to bare minimum in areas i think are safe.
I know they have the capability to track me.
They feel omnipresent and i live in a climate of dread and fear.

I am supposed to be a good citizen and preform civic duty when my mens rae is activated.
Sometimes they go against my personal beliefs.
If i say nothing, people might be harmed.
If i say something people might be harmed.
I do not know if i can trust the people put in place to handle situations.

Pressure from sanctions and rule of law means I am supposed to follow through.
I feel guilty for doing it.

I will be attacked for doing what I am supposed to do.

Not sure who i am supposed to trust or side with.

Everyone has dissenting opinions and i am not sure who i am to believe and if i can always trust my government and the reasons they have because they are known to do bad things that cause people harm. The other side does things that cause harm.
I gaze for hours trying to think of what i should do with myself and where to lend support.

I do not want to be manipulated by an evil entity and agendas.

I do not want to be jailed, fined, or fee'd.

I do not want to be enslaved.

I also do not want to be doing something that directly causes harm.

The sanctions put on me force me to cooperate under conditions that make me feel bad.

I want a coup de graçe because i cant handle seeing the evils of humankind.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

Does this count?



If not, then it's my circle of depression you wanted to know about. Basically, it goes like this: my health is going downhill because I don't take care of myself properly ---> to feel better and be healthier, I need to eat better and get good sleep ---> I try to do this for a week or two, but then I end up depressed again and stop caring, so therefore, I do not eat healthier or sleep well ---> End result: the tooth aches, the high blood pressure, and all the other BS I experience just comes back and I become more depressed, thus, the circle begins again.