toxicjester

toxicjester

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Dec 11, 2023
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Heya everyone! I had another discussion type question and I wanted to see what people's thoughts were n stuff!!

Do you plan to have an items with you when you ctb? This could be anything that's special or significant to you. Would you potentially want to get buried with said items afterwards, have them given away, or something else?

For me I'm in the works of getting myself a big seal plush that I'd have with me if I ever decide to actually catch my bus. I'd also have a small harp seal plush that's really special to me and a Meowth plush that my gf and I got on our first date. Maybe some altar stuff nearby depending on what I end up having as my method. I'm not sure if I'd want to get buried with these tho, maybe have them on my grave if I get buried but I'd worry someone would take them. I'd probably be better have having these items given to my gf and/or my family.
 
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I anthropomorphize my plushies a little too much to let them be near me when I commit. I would feel so guilty :(

I don't have a lot of sentimental items that I think would be easy to incorporate. Maybe a bracelet that my wife made me, though I worry it could get damaged during the process
 
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toxicjester

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I anthropomorphize my plushies a little too much to let them be near me when I commit. I would feel so guilty :(

I don't have a lot of sentimental items that I think would be easy to incorporate. Maybe a bracelet that my wife made me, though I worry it could get damaged during the process
That's very fair! I think that's why I really want to have a method that's more like falling asleep n stuff. That way it'd be just like I'm cuddling with them to go to bed one last time y'know? I'd like to think that they'd understand and maybe they can find comfort and happiness with my gf or family
That being said I think a bracelet would be v nice to have in your last moments, and hopefully you could find a way to incorporate it without it getting damaged!
 
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That's very fair! I think that's why I really want to have a method that's more like falling asleep n stuff. That way it'd be just like I'm cuddling with them to go to bed one last time y'know? I'd like to think that they'd understand and maybe they can find comfort and happiness with my gf or family
That being said I think a bracelet would be v nice to have in your last moments, and hopefully you could find a way to incorporate it without it getting damaged!
Yes if I commit I'm afraid my wife may also soon after. I'm really not sure what we'll be able to do with our plushies. I might try asking a friend to take them if anything happens to us both bc he just had a baby.
 
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I don't have anything like that. Nothing in life has any sentimental value to me, nothing.
 
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Yes if I commit I'm afraid my wife may also soon after. I'm really not sure what we'll be able to do with our plushies. I might try asking a friend to take them if anything happens to us both bc he just had a baby.
I think that'd be really sweet if your friend's baby got them, it'd give your plushies a whole other chance to be loved all over again 💜
 
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Heya everyone! I had another discussion type question and I wanted to see what people's thoughts were n stuff!!

Do you plan to have an items with you when you ctb? This could be anything that's special or significant to you. Would you potentially want to get buried with said items afterwards, have them given away, or something else?

For me I'm in the works of getting myself a big seal plush that I'd have with me if I ever decide to actually catch my bus. I'd also have a small harp seal plush that's really special to me and a Meowth plush that my gf and I got on our first date. Maybe some altar stuff nearby depending on what I end up having as my method. I'm not sure if I'd want to get buried with these tho, maybe have them on my grave if I get buried but I'd worry someone would take them. I'd probably be better have having these items given to my gf and/or my family.
one 64 gb usb drive that i will wear as a locket, i have stored my music collection, some images that i have collected over a period of time, passwords stuff, letters, miscellaneous programs and stuff and a bunch of notes for myself and others. all encrypted in aes-128 using SanDisk PrivateAccess vault .
 

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Yeah, I definitely want to bring a plushie with me. My plan is SN in a hotel room, so I would really like to have something familiar and comforting there with me in the final minutes.
 
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There are pictures of my deceased family members on my wall. Chances are, I'll be looking at them when I go. I also thought about hugging some hot water bottles. I think that might feel reassuring. I want to organise a direct cremation before I go and my solicitor will arrange for a house clearance company to remove and sell all my crap.

I kind of have the opposite feeling towards leaving stuff behind. I have this weird sense of satisfaction at the thought of it all just being erased by total strangers.

I lost so many close family members early on in my life. I inherited bits and bobs to remember them by but decades on without them, there's just this realisation that it's just 'stuff'. It doesn't bring them back. It doesn't really comfort me. I'm the end of the line pretty much in my family now too. I'm not really close enough to anyone to feel they'd even want my stuff. I suppose because I wish I had never existed, it fits that I won't really for that long afterwards in terms of what's left.

The exception to that will be the work I did. (Creative job.) But even there, it's not like I'm famous. A handful of people I worked for might remember me for a little bit until they employ someone better.
 
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i also would want to have a pokemon plush with me! my bf bought me a piplup plush (my favorite pokemon) and also a teddy demon plush (from maoujou de oyasumi) for my birthday. they're my favorites, but i have many others, so might also include some of those. other than that, i'm not sure, other than wearing clothes i love?
i think i just want someone to hug as i go, but since i can't, a plushie is the closest thing... but even if i had a person with me, i'd still want my plushies. but this is under the assumption i ctb in my room anyway, which would have me surrounded by things that bring me small comforts anyway.
 
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toxicjester

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I don't have anything like that. Nothing in life has any sentimental value to me, nothing.
I'm sorry about that, I can't imagine how shitty things have to be for you in order to not have anything like that. On the other side, if you're not a sentimental person to begin with I think that's also okay. At the end of the day having something like that in your final moments isn't necessary
one 64 gb usb drive that i will wear as a locket, i have stored my music collection, some images that i have collected over a period of time, passwords stuff, letters, miscellaneous programs and stuff and a bunch of notes for myself and others. all encrypted in aes-128 using SanDisk PrivateAccess vault .
That's actually really smart and cool! I would've never thought to have a usb drive with all of my important info. Very easy to carry also in whatever way you'd want to ctb I imagine!
Yeah, I definitely want to bring a plushie with me. My plan is SN in a hotel room, so I would really like to have something familiar and comforting there with me in the final minutes.
I think having a stuffed friend with you as you pass is a beautiful thing. What happens after you ctb can be scary and being in an unfamiliar environment and be even more unnerving. Having a friend with you to comfort is something that warms my heart and moves me 💜
There are pictures of my deceased family members on my wall. Chances are, I'll be looking at them when I go. I also thought about hugging some hot water bottles. I think that might feel reassuring. I want to organise a direct cremation before I go and my solicitor will arrange for a house clearance company to remove and sell all my crap.

I kind of have the opposite feeling towards leaving stuff behind. I have this weird sense of satisfaction at the thought of it all just being erased by total strangers.

I lost so many close family members early on in my life. I inherited bits and bobs to remember them by but decades on without them, there's just this realisation that it's just 'stuff'. It doesn't bring them back. It doesn't really comfort me. I'm the end of the line pretty much in my family now too. I'm not really close enough to anyone to feel they'd even want my stuff. I suppose because I wish I had never existed, it fits that I won't really for that long afterwards in terms of what's left.

The exception to that will be the work I did. (Creative job.) But even there, it's not like I'm famous. A handful of people I worked for might remember me for a little bit until they employ someone better.
I can definitely understand that perspective, even if it's not my way of thinking about it. There is something almost moving about having everything about you be gone once you're gone, it's the closest thing people can get to never existing I think.

And I actually made art for the longest time that I have out online(don't want to link it or anything for privacy) and I think it'd be similar to that, or like maybe every once in a while my art would still cross someone's Twitter feed and they wouldn't even know who I was or that I was gone or anything. It's almost a little scary
i also would want to have a pokemon plush with me! my bf bought me a piplup plush (my favorite pokemon) and also a teddy demon plush (from maoujou de oyasumi) for my birthday. they're my favorites, but i have many others, so might also include some of those. other than that, i'm not sure, other than wearing clothes i love?
i think i just want someone to hug as i go, but since i can't, a plushie is the closest thing... but even if i had a person with me, i'd still want my plushies. but this is under the assumption i ctb in my room anyway, which would have me surrounded by things that bring me small comforts anyway.
Aw piplup so cute!! And I looked up that teddy bear and it's so cute!! I didn't even think about potentially having important clothes on. I don't think I have anything in that vein, I'd just be comfy.

And I definitely feel that, it's why I wanted the seal plush I have to be really big (and the one I found online is almost 4 ft i believe!).

And that's very nice! I know a lot of people don't ctb in their rooms for one reason or another but I bet it'd be nice to do it in a familiar place surrounded with what you know and love 💜
 
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LostLily

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Might have to decide with plushie that I will be cuddling when I die
 
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My stuffed animal. I have slept with it every night ever since my mother gave me it.
 

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