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Defective Personel
- Jan 20, 2023
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I didn't rly have a real sense of self of myself until recently. I was happy and distracted, but I didn't rly know myself, I just thought of myself as... actually, I didn't think of myself any more then whatever makes me "happy" and "doing what I want to do".
That's not any kind of answer.
I'm searching, reaching for something solid & real. I shouldn't have done that, I should've stayed a content child. Everything would be the same but I wouldn't be aware to feel it all.
My sense of self was "null" but now it's "Nothing". I should've been an automaton, a vessel of performance, but I'm a human, a defective autist to boot. I didn't know what I was, but now I know in full detail, that I'm already at a dead end.yet I still search for answers.
These answers without questions... There is more to myself then this, but I'm still what I am.
It it appropriate to even call these "Answers", because there isn't any question they answer.
That's not any kind of answer.
I'm searching, reaching for something solid & real. I shouldn't have done that, I should've stayed a content child. Everything would be the same but I wouldn't be aware to feel it all.
My sense of self was "null" but now it's "Nothing". I should've been an automaton, a vessel of performance, but I'm a human, a defective autist to boot. I didn't know what I was, but now I know in full detail, that I'm already at a dead end.yet I still search for answers.
These answers without questions... There is more to myself then this, but I'm still what I am.
It it appropriate to even call these "Answers", because there isn't any question they answer.
