Self hatred is another factor for ctb

[lostangel]

I have low self esteem but you would probably know that if you saw me. Every time I try to better my life I have these feeling come over me that I'm not worthy of being alive. I'm so sensitive it makes navigating everyday life a near impossible task. I'm so sensitive that when I try to better my life whether that be fitness or whatever if someone says something slightly negative these thoughts come rushing back. It's hard to make self love when I've never been shown love in the first place. I can't stand myself.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I know how you feel. I hate myself also, I hate what I've let myself become and all the bad and poor choices I've made in my life. I hate the way I look, the way I think, the way I feel. People tell me I'm a nice person, but I just think they have a motive to want to hurt me. Sorry that you feel this way love, I know it sucks so much and makes daily living a huge task.

 

[WornOutLife]

I feel the same. I might add that I know my health and physical appearance are getting worse and worse but laziness and depression always win so I end up worse than the day before.

 

[SmellyRat]

Same here i'm way too sensitive everything hurts ffs.
Usually if life has the potential to get bad it will...

 

[All washed up]

I'm just existing at the moment everyday is a huge struggle.
I don't hate myself as such but hate what Ive become.
It's only taken me 6 months of depression to reach this stage.
Stupid choices have taken me from being a happy, interesting, outgoing person to a shell of my former self.
This is a major factor in ctb thoughts being part of my life

 

[Deleted member 17949]

Self hatred is basically my entire reason for suicide