Self harm relapse

[eczema]

was digging through an old sewing kit when i cut my index finger pretty bad on a razor blade hidden in there. took it and cut my leg. it felt great. a lot of blood got on one of my porcelain dolls, but i'm not too upset. looks kinda cool. i hid the razor blade in the diary that came with one of my monster high dolls.

 

[ctoan]

dude...

 

[eczema]

dude...

yeah?

 

[ctoan]

i cant see blood


if you want to harm yourself just be a pro and take drugs

 

[eczema]

i cant see blood


if you want to harm yourself just be a pro and take drugs

don't have access to drugs. and what do you mean you can't see blood?

 

[ctoan]

don't have access to drugs. and what do you mean you can't see blood?

i pass out

 

[Desperate_Soul]

i pass out

Wow, I want to pass out at the sight of blood! That would make the process of CTB'ing so much easier for me.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Just take care that it's not noticed by your parents. Self-harming raises flags for suicidal behavior.

 

[RM5998]

Self-harming raises flags for suicidal behavior.

You'd be surprised how easy it is to dodge that. I said I got cuts from the edge of the bed.

Well, it's not my parents, but friends (okay, acquaintances) from college. But there have been like 3 people who have noticed, and none of them have guessed. At least, it doesn't seem like they have. I wear half-sleeved t-shirts, and my scars are on my forearm and are pretty visible.

I don't know whether to be happy that I've been safe from scrutiny, or sad that there's no one IRL I can open up to.