ladidabi
Losing all hope is freedom.
- Mar 19, 2023
- 41
The past few month I've been ending up cutting my wrists and forearm more often due to worsening mental health problems and waiting lines to another outpatient facility. Very short about the incident, yesterday I went for another session if you can call it that, and I went to sleep. I wake up to head to work left arm feeling incredibly weak in comparison to my right. I cut on both arms, but even then I only have this problem with my left arm. The weakness is most obvious around my wrist (typing is a struggle right now).
I didn't know it was a fairly common thing, so I call the GPs office and ask for an appointment tomorrow. She asks me to explain and I just tell her I got an injury which may be the cause to my very weak arm/hand. No questions but she offered to let my GP know to call me shortly after instead to hear about it. I'm ok with that.
He calls me about 30 min later and starts by asking how I would explain the feeling. I repeat what I told the lady on the feeling in my hand and upper arm.
He asks when it was caused and what kind of injury it is. I tell him last night, cut. I hoped it wouldn't give him thoughts as I never expressed to him that I do this. My dumbass forgets he has access to my journal, and I he goes quiet. All I hear for a few minutes is typing and clicking from the computer mouse. He then tells me "you know that's a dumb thing to do, right? not very smart." I become quiet because at that point I don't know what to say.
He continues with: "if you ever feel the need to harm yourself, go outside, go for a run. Run as fast as you can and let your energy out. Don't cut yourself, ok?"
At least I learned today that the cuts caused damaged nerves.
I'm dumbfounded by his response, to say the least.
I didn't know it was a fairly common thing, so I call the GPs office and ask for an appointment tomorrow. She asks me to explain and I just tell her I got an injury which may be the cause to my very weak arm/hand. No questions but she offered to let my GP know to call me shortly after instead to hear about it. I'm ok with that.
He calls me about 30 min later and starts by asking how I would explain the feeling. I repeat what I told the lady on the feeling in my hand and upper arm.
He asks when it was caused and what kind of injury it is. I tell him last night, cut. I hoped it wouldn't give him thoughts as I never expressed to him that I do this. My dumbass forgets he has access to my journal, and I he goes quiet. All I hear for a few minutes is typing and clicking from the computer mouse. He then tells me "you know that's a dumb thing to do, right? not very smart." I become quiet because at that point I don't know what to say.
He continues with: "if you ever feel the need to harm yourself, go outside, go for a run. Run as fast as you can and let your energy out. Don't cut yourself, ok?"
At least I learned today that the cuts caused damaged nerves.
I'm dumbfounded by his response, to say the least.
