Self destructive

[freaktech]

Anyone feels like everything is so hard and takes so effort that you pervert/corrupt yourself to educate for achieve the goal of death? It's like face one very Big and scary problem, but erradicating all any other problem

 

[HGL91]

"you pervert/corrupt yourself to educate for achieve the goal of death"

This wording confused me. Can you reword it? Because I'd like to know what you mean. I'm definitely self destructive, so I can relate with that lol

 

[all_pointless]

Yes thats me often. I hate that. I consciously let the people get the idea that they could abuse me.

 

[freaktech]

"you pervert/corrupt yourself to educate for achieve the goal of death"

This wording confused me. Can you reword it? Because I'd like to know what you mean. I'm definitely self destructive, so I can relate with that lol

You make effort un direction to convince you or manipulate your own mind to make suicide as the only option

Yes thats me often. I hate that. I consciously let the people get the idea that they could abuse me.

Yes, in your case, is because you stop the fighting and don't care to defend your parcel and you end without parcel/personality at all? I waste all my life like this, i only would want to end and not reminding all this bad dream. The part that most hurt me is my family, even when I try to minimize thinking about the insignificantness of the pain at a cosmic scale

 

[HGL91]

You make effort un direction to convince you or manipulate your own mind to make suicide as the only option

Oh, I understand now. Yeah, I feel like I've done everything in life I've wanted to do, so it seems only downhill from here. Rather take my own life than watch it get worse and worse until I have 0 control over it.