Venting Seems like suicide is the only option

[Imgonnadie]

Feel like a bad person for posting this, but I'm just not up to life. I can't make myself do anything I don't want to. It's too much hassle. I don't even feel overwhelming sadness about it or anything. It seems like the only logical choice for me. I find being consistent in a job or school impossible, therefore I feel like the only other option is suicide. Whenever I espouse viewpoints like this I receive judgement and get told to just make myself work harder. If I have to do that I think I'd just rather commit suicide. The dread of having to do things wins.

 

[Sadpat]

I'm really sorry you feel like that is the only option, you must have been through a lot if you feel like this. Have you tried to talk to a psychiatrist or a professional about this? The way you describe it sounds like pretty severe depression which there are ways to help. Sending you love and good thoughts.

 

[Imgonnadie]

I'm really sorry you feel like that is the only option, you must have been through a lot if you feel like this. Have you tried to talk to a psychiatrist or a professional about this? The way you describe it sounds like pretty severe depression which there are ways to help. Sending you love and good thoughts.

Only one so far. They are one of the people who give me the judgement I mentioned. I don't feel like I've gained any insight in my 8 or so sessions I've had, just filling time. They've mentioned antidepressants which I dread but will try at some point when all options are exhausted.

 

[Sadpat]

Only one so far. They are one of the people who give me the judgement I mentioned. I don't feel like I've gained any insight in my 8 or so sessions I've had, just filling time. They've mentioned antidepressants which I dread but will try at some point when all options are exhausted.

It might be time to talk to someone else (if you have the resources to do so). That person sounds awful and i'm sorry that after trying to reach out for help you're met with someone who won't listen. There's not a worse feeling than letting your mind out like that to someone and getting seemingly no insight/help, and instead getting judgement for the very thing you're looking to get help for. I've had a few friends that have went on meds who have said it helps tremendously, especially when it comes to BPD.

 

[Thegoldenapples]

Only one so far. They are one of the people who give me the judgement I mentioned. I don't feel like I've gained any insight in my 8 or so sessions I've had, just filling time. They've mentioned antidepressants which I dread but will try at some point when all options are exhausted.

You need to try kambo. Your body needs a rinse out and to wake up. Toxins and parasite bog down your body and your brain. It also brings trauma to the surface and helps you deal with it. Therapy etc won't work. The trauma is embedded inside and kambo will help push it through to the surface. Iakp.org has practitioners you can find in your area. I feel some decent kambo sessions would save half the people on this site. When researching it, use DuckDuckGo.

 

[Kbeau]

Feel like a bad person for posting this, but I'm just not up to life. I can't make myself do anything I don't want to. It's too much hassle. I don't even feel overwhelming sadness about it or anything. It seems like the only logical choice for me. I find being consistent in a job or school impossible, therefore I feel like the only other option is suicide. Whenever I espouse viewpoints like this I receive judgement and get told to just make myself work harder. If I have to do that I think I'd just rather commit suicide. The dread of having to do things wins.

I completely understand that. I have no interests, motivation or energy. Period. I'm not sad, I'm not mad, I'm just, blah. Have tried therapists, psychiatrists and 9 different antidepressants - nothing. I gave it my best shot but nothing has fixed whatever is wrong with me.

 

[Debbie Northampton U]

I do think there's something to be said for having a full body cleanse to get rid of all the parasites (not sure about frog therapy myself) and muck. Many people say they feel revitalized afterwards.

If only I could be bothered to do it.....

 

[BlankUser]

I feel very similar... I just can't deal with basic things in life.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

no matter what, there are always other options. however sometimes suicide is the best one

 

[FuneralCry]

Yeah, I can relate to this. I think for me, it is just the way my brain is wired, I have never been suited for this life and have lacked the ability to cope with it. I just find death comforting, as it solves all of lifes problems.