sadlystillgoing3
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- Feb 3, 2019
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I spent 5 hours yesterday crafting an email to my advisor to the school I'm transferring to only to find out she ISN'T my advisor because I'm dumb af. I actually emailed the department chair of the VERY selective program who pretty much decides if I get into grad school or not. And today I found out they updated their transfer form but never published it so one of my classes I'm taking right now is useless. I've switched majors so many times that I have literally about 30 USELESS credits total. So much money and time for nothing.
I hate how the education system is set up and how we need to take general education credits and transferring credits is so meticulous. There's absolutely no reason that an english course from one school shouldn't count at every college, even out of state ones.
Anyways, this just made me feel even more suicidal and I literally thought, "well, this won't matter bc when I try to kill myself AND FAIL I'll be in a mental hospital."
And all of this for a job that i don't even want. I don't want to fucking work. I deserve to live without working. We all do. Why do we have to work in order to earn things. We inherently deserve to survive and thrive because we're alive. This world is fucking ridiculous.
Off topic a bit but lately I've been having really bad hypoglycemia episodes and panic attacks and although they're horrible, part of me thinks that my heart might just stop or I'll go into a coma and I feel a tiny bit of peace.
I hate how the education system is set up and how we need to take general education credits and transferring credits is so meticulous. There's absolutely no reason that an english course from one school shouldn't count at every college, even out of state ones.
Anyways, this just made me feel even more suicidal and I literally thought, "well, this won't matter bc when I try to kill myself AND FAIL I'll be in a mental hospital."
And all of this for a job that i don't even want. I don't want to fucking work. I deserve to live without working. We all do. Why do we have to work in order to earn things. We inherently deserve to survive and thrive because we're alive. This world is fucking ridiculous.
Off topic a bit but lately I've been having really bad hypoglycemia episodes and panic attacks and although they're horrible, part of me thinks that my heart might just stop or I'll go into a coma and I feel a tiny bit of peace.