Schedule CTB or spur of the moment?

[Wisdom3_1-9]

Things are starting to feel really bad again, and I'm feeling anxious to go. Whenever it gets this bad, I inevitably look at my schedule and figure out when might be the best time. I wonder if this is actually the best strategy, or whether I'd be more successful if I just let my emotions carry me.

So I'm curious. Do most of you expect to pick a "convenient" day or do you think it will "just happen?" And do you think the "success" rate is higher one way or the other?

 

[ocd is bad]

I think I'll have a firearm, and one day I'll just get too fed up and ctb. The only planning I'd do is I'd walk to a river or something so my body lands in there. I don't want someone to have to scrape my brain particles off the wall.
So in short I'll probably plan a half hour or so in advance.

 

[TAW122]

I kind of do a hybrid of the two. While I don't have a set date locked in (because that doesn't allow me as much flexibility and I run the risk of rushing things, thus increasing the chance of SI and also mistakes leading up to the final moment), I would have more of a general time frame (like sometime around m month, w week, d day, etc.) so that allows me to either expedite my time or postpone due to changes in situation. Also, I am not so impulsive that I just go for it without getting things in order and being 100% ready, because also being too hasty would run the risk of mistakes. Sure, having some darker and trying times does make CTB'ing easier, but I also regulate it for myself such that I won't become too impulsive.

In other words, simply put, when I decide to CTB, it would be a matter of time and circumstance, carefully planned out, not rushed, and methodically executed.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I've felt horrible for three days in a row now. I feel like I want to do it tonight, but it will be more convenient for my family and co-workers if I wait till August 1. Then again, if I always do what's more convenient for others, then I'd probably never ctb.

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

I think I will go early September unless something drastic happens to improve my life. Although after all this time it hasn't. Just got worse!

 

[Deleted member 19654]

I think as long as you've thought out your method enough for it to be work then I'd say there would be more success there. For example, doing research and making sure you have everything you need for your method. After that, I don't think it matters too much if a ctb date is scheduled. I'm not planning for an exact date. I'm just going to let it happen when it feels like the right time.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

Personally, I have set an exact date and therefore know exactly how long I will live.

I can therefore prepare myself well so that everything fits and I don't have to report an "attempt" later.

If you can prepare everything perfectly and know for sure that it will also work safely in the short term, then you can do without an exact date. Maybe it's the bad weather forecast or the mother-in-law announces a visit.

But if the method takes preparation and time, then it is certainly not advisable to kill yourself with luck.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

As soon as I have everything I need will be my general date; from there it could be minutes or weeks. I'll probably set a harder date from there or I could just go for it. I'm really not sure.

I'm pretty sure if I had everything now it would be this weekend. For me, it won't rely on people around me but how i'm feeling.