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ITryHard
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- Jul 30, 2020
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As my day draws nearer, I find I'm getting increasingly scared. My method is SN, and to say I'm not looking forward to it would be an understatement. Everything from the taste, to the potential vomiting, to the tachycardia -- even passing out -- is causing my anxiety to go through the roof (anxiety being one of my main mental health challenges). Not to mention the prospect of potential failure and battling SI.
I've tried other methods, namely partial hanging, and have concluded that it's impossible. I don't have access to other methods, so SN it is. And it's not a matter of not being ready to go either. I may have some melancholy knowing I'm heading into my last days, but there is no doubt in my mind that my time on this planet is up.
I'm not looking for encouragement (never would look for that), but perhaps a kind word or two from this fantastic community to alleviate my anxiety somewhat.
I've tried other methods, namely partial hanging, and have concluded that it's impossible. I don't have access to other methods, so SN it is. And it's not a matter of not being ready to go either. I may have some melancholy knowing I'm heading into my last days, but there is no doubt in my mind that my time on this planet is up.
I'm not looking for encouragement (never would look for that), but perhaps a kind word or two from this fantastic community to alleviate my anxiety somewhat.