Venting Scared to live. Sorta afraid of dieing

[Another lost soul09]

I'm scared to keep living like this. I've really let myself go. I barely shower. Often forget to take my medicine. As well as barely sleep most nights. I'm tired of waking up and doing the same old routine day in and day out. I already bought SN and hope my family doesn't ask to many questions about the package when it arrives. I'll probably just say it's sex toy related and they won't ask. They want me to get my GED but I have no motivation to do so or really do anything anymore. I'll probably end up attempting again. I tried the night night method, overdosing, as well as a plastic bag over my head. I think I'm really ready to say goodbye. I made a video explaining why I want to die which I plan on posting before I attempt again. If I fail I'll just delete the video.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence, I also feel so tired. But anyway I wish you all the best.