Venting Scared to ctb / Not sure

[lonelyy]

I'm gonna try partial hanging in around 10-20 minutes and I'm really not sure what to think. This past week leading up hasn't even felt real. I feel like I should be more content with this, it makes me wonder if I'm even ready to go through with it. I know life is just gonna keep on getting worse if I stay especially with the holidays coming up so I feel pressured to ctb. I'm pretty certain I wanna die, but I'm scared of the consequences of failing and such. I wouldn't be surprised if I didn't even go through with it after posting this. I don't know what I'm trying to get from posting here, I probably just wanna get these thoughts out there somewhere.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in whatever you decide.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

You were posting because you know many of us have the exact same thoughts. Are you still with us

 

[MxTuesday]

It's so hard to even know what to do isn't it.
How are you doing? If what you need to do is be helped that is OK.

 

[lonelyy]

You were posting because you know many of us have the exact same thoughts. Are you still with us

Yep. Didn't have the guts to do it.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

Yep. Didn't have the guts to do it.

Many of us have similar stories, don't take it too harshly. If SI wasn't this powerful, humanity wouldn't be here.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

Yep. Didn't have the guts to do it.

Glad you are still here. SI is so hard to overcome. I never gave it a thought until I tried to ctb.I thought it would be so easy. how do people do it?