Venting Safe space.

[𝗟𝗼𝗻𝗲𝗹𝘆]

I don't really know where to start, I've had a lot on my mind lately, need to vent.

I've been struggling with my mental health / ctb thoughts for the past ~6 years, never been diagnosed with anything since I've never been to any sort of specialist. I'm scared to open up about my mental health to people around me. Every time I'm in my low I get attacked as my attitude is seen as negative, I'm being called ungrateful and bitchy without having any space to explain myself or my feelings. It really sucks as I don't have any intentions to make any1 around me upset. It makes me feel even worse about myself, puts me in worse headspace, it also made me think that keeping all the problems to myself is probably best thing I can do.

I've been struggling with my thoughts lately a little bit more again and didn't know what to do or where to go. I don't really have any1 to talk to. People usually ghost me when I'm not doing good, which I can't really blame them for, it's hard for me to stand myself let alone for someone else who doesn't understand those issues. I was watching a lot of ctb/depression related YT videos when I stumbled across tantacrul's video about this website. It made me very curious. I searched for the forum and read few posts. As sad as some of them were, for the first time in a very long time I felt like I could relate to someone and that someone could relate to me. I felt seen and understood. I finally found a place where I belong, a place where I don't feel judged for being broken, where people won't crucify me for simply being open about my thoughts and feelings. For the first time in a very long time I don't feel as lonely in my struggles.

 

[Meditation guide]

I'm glad you feel that way and I did too until I got bullied here today. Yes the post is still up.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm not even surprised that those people were acting so cruelly, so many people really are just too insensitive, it's dreadful how they just create more suffering. But anyway I'm pleased for you that you found this place to be beneficial, I wish you the best.

 

[Hyes]

your story is incredibly relatable, not just to myself but many others. The main thing that's been helping me is knowing other people have experienced this before and I'm not alone in it.