Venting Rotting in a room alone is better than dying

[Giovannino224]

I want to root in a room forever.
I don't know how many times I've said this.
This is a desire that comes in my mind every know and again.
I'm used to it.
It's comforting.
I always imagine how it would be peaceful.
Sometimes I even think that It would be better than dying.
Just sitting in a room with maybe a bed, some food and water.
Just staying there thinking about anything.
I wouldn't be obligated to talk with someone.
I wouldn't be obligated to have any kind of social relationships.
I wouldn't be obligated to study or work.

This sounds actually better than dying.
Dying is basically a jump in to the void.
When you'll die there won't be anything, just lights out.
If I'm rotting in a room, without anyone, at least I'll be enjoying the gift of consciousness.

 

[Dingusguy]

To each their own. I get what you mean with saying it would be peaceful.... Sort of.. Because I get the whole, not being obligated to anything being nice. But being alone in a room slowly wasting away seems horrible, I would rather take a leap of faith into the void and then finally be at peace.
But it's interesting seeing someone with a different opinion on the matter.

 

[3ndmym1sery]

after a while it gets painfully boring

 

[sanction]

How many years do you want to be alive inside that room though? 1000 years? 1 million years?

Or is it better to not exist, just like before we were born? Since this world already existed for millions of years before we came anyways, and we were completely fine not being alive that whole time. I would rather just not be alive

Just because you may be inside the room, doesn't mean you won't age or get sick. And does it mean you have unlimited money? Because food, electricity, or any entertainment you have inside there, doesn't just magically appear out of nowhere

But obviously I get what you mean. I'm just casually discussing it for fun lol

 

[undesirednlazy]

I want to root in a room forever.
I don't know how many times I've said this.
This is a desire that comes in my mind every know and again.
I'm used to it.
It's comforting.
I always imagine how it would be peaceful.
Sometimes I even think that It would be better than dying.
Just sitting in a room with maybe a bed, some food and water.
Just staying there thinking about anything.
I wouldn't be obligated to talk with someone.
I wouldn't be obligated to have any kind of social relationships.
I wouldn't be obligated to study or work.

This sounds actually better than dying.
Dying is basically a jump in to the void.
When you'll die there won't be anything, just lights out.
If I'm rotting in a room, without anyone, at least I'll be enjoying the gift of consciousness.

you're so right, my obligations to society are my number 1 opp

 

[Adûnâi]

Why not both xd?

But I do share your view, I seem to have been managing to live in the room just fine for years. And going outside, seeing males with gfs, makes me far more suicidal. Still 2 weeks until my semester starts.

(That said, summer months with no air conditioning are suifuel on their own, haha. But still better than going outside.)

Hopefully, in a year or two AI is going to make going outside utterly obsolete, even for the normies!

 

[sick.faery]

been doing that for the last 5 years and yea for the first two months it's chill but then it becomes a nightmare. suicide is better

 

[Giovannino224]

How many years do you want to be alive inside that room though? 1000 years? 1 million years?

Speaking unrealistically, probably I'll make it last almost forever.
It'll be like a punishment of hell, like those described in the Divine Comedy.
I always had the innate desire to destroy my sanity to the minimum.
Staying in a room alone for a very long time, will probably make me go crazy.
My mind will be so fucked up that I'll lose touch with reality.
I'll end up in a trans state where I'll be like dreaming with my eyes open.
I'll be alive, but somehow unconscious of my own condition, hypnotized.
The process of getting there is horrible, but the trans state that I'll be in is better than actual death that is just a total black out.

Speaking realistically instead, only a few months.
The time will be determined by how much food and water I have with me.
There will be no entertainment, no moneys to buy things, and of course no more food or water except what I brought.
It'll be just me and my thoughts.
To make an analogy, it'll be like being in a coffin waiting for your death.

Anyway I won't discuss the possibility that if this happens for real, I'll probably go crazy after a few days and I'll want to get out as soon as possible.
Like I said in the post, I don't always have this desire, maybe it can just an automatic response to stressful situations.
Everything is possible.

 

[ScubaCTB]

Sometimes I even think that It would be better than dying.
Just sitting in a room with maybe a bed, some food and water.
Just staying there thinking about anything.
I wouldn't be obligated to talk with someone.
I wouldn't be obligated to have any kind of social relationships.
I wouldn't be obligated to study or work.

This sounds actually better than dying.

You've basically described my real life since December 2022. I live alone, work from home, and rarely leave the house. No friends, no family, no love, no meaning, no nothing. Just me and the bottle. i haven't even showered in 9 days. I will tomorrow because I have to leave the house for an errand. To each their own. But I've contemplated CTB several times since the turn of the millennium. After that long, lonely, hurtful, painful 2023, I will be gone from this world very soon!

 

[returntothevoid]

I want to root in a room forever.
I don't know how many times I've said this.
This is a desire that comes in my mind every know and again.
I'm used to it.
It's comforting.
I always imagine how it would be peaceful.
Sometimes I even think that It would be better than dying.
Just sitting in a room with maybe a bed, some food and water.
Just staying there thinking about anything.
I wouldn't be obligated to talk with someone.
I wouldn't be obligated to have any kind of social relationships.
I wouldn't be obligated to study or work.

This sounds actually better than dying.
Dying is basically a jump in to the void.
When you'll die there won't be anything, just lights out.
If I'm rotting in a room, without anyone, at least I'll be enjoying the gift of consciousness.

"Dying is basically a jump in to the void"

My username B) ayo

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I guess you do you but, personally, I still prefer death over anything in life. The "lights out" that you describe is so peaceful

 

[Superdeterminist]

surprised that this isn't sarcasm.

 

[ChildrensITV]

Can't be me. I want to die. I've been rotting in room. Now I need to try death.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I rot in my flat/room since years bc due to lack of especially financial means I can't do much more. I also was not able to CTB when I had the best chances and the external circumstances were bad enough to have justified CTB. I Think CTB is the better option than to rot at home for an indefinite amount if time - but it's also not that easy!!

 

[hopeless08]

I want to root in a room forever.
I don't know how many times I've said this.
This is a desire that comes in my mind every know and again.
I'm used to it.
It's comforting.
I always imagine how it would be peaceful.
Sometimes I even think that It would be better than dying.
Just sitting in a room with maybe a bed, some food and water.
Just staying there thinking about anything.
I wouldn't be obligated to talk with someone.
I wouldn't be obligated to have any kind of social relationships.
I wouldn't be obligated to study or work.

This sounds actually better than dying.
Dying is basically a jump in to the void.
When you'll die there won't be anything, just lights out.
If I'm rotting in a room, without anyone, at least I'll be enjoying the gift of consciousness.

I get what you're saying about how nice it would be to have no obligations but sitting in a room all day and all night alone, only gives you more time to think about how horrible existence is and in my case reminds me of how pathetic and useless I am, while the rest of the world is out there leading normal lives, being productive and enjoying life.
Don't get me wrong I absolutely could not be in the outside world having to deal with people and all the obligations but being in my room all day doesn't take away or make make my pain any better.

 

[3ndmym1sery]

Can't be me. I want to die. I've been rotting in room. Now I need to try death.

same

 

[mortuarymary]

I want to root in a room forever.
I don't know how many times I've said this.
This is a desire that comes in my mind every know and again.
I'm used to it.
It's comforting.
I always imagine how it would be peaceful.
Sometimes I even think that It would be better than dying.
Just sitting in a room with maybe a bed, some food and water.
Just staying there thinking about anything.
I wouldn't be obligated to talk with someone.
I wouldn't be obligated to have any kind of social relationships.
I wouldn't be obligated to study or work.

This sounds actually better than dying.
Dying is basically a jump in to the void.
When you'll die there won't be anything, just lights out.
If I'm rotting in a room, without anyone, at least I'll be enjoying the gift of consciousness.

Not for me.
i don't want to rot if i get that way. I want to go. Consciousness isn't always a gift.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Imo what they constantly say that "life / consciousness / existence is a beautiful gift" . That is one of the biggest lies.

Only in life / consciousness / existence can a human feel unbearable constant pain and 1000 other horrible things in life . If u are suffering unbearable constant pain as from kidney stones , incurable bed sores ( who by very slow decay), starvation, colon blocked by cancer ( Angelique flowers), junko furuta ( 44 days of constant extreme torture).. you are suffering unbearable constant pain only because u are living / conscious / existing. If you are put under general anesthesia then u won't feel that pain anymore. General anesthesia is the closest thing to death/ non-existence. The difference is that the anesthesia is temporary. Death / non-existence is permanent forever. To me non-existence forever is the best thing by far ,the only perfect thing

 

[sadslime]

As someone who has done that for a very long time i can tell you with absolute certainty that it is hell, there's nothing desirable about it whatsoever, death would be a release from day after day of torture and loneliness but if you rot long enough you will become helpless and even ctb will be out of reach. It would be better to just die than ever experience this.