Venting Roses are red, violets are blue, I’m a POS, I’d be of better use if I was glue

[dropdeadfred]

Oh my fucking GOD, why am I still here?! I am such a failure that I even fail at taking my own life. Maybe Halloween will be the next most opportune time for my tortured soul.

 

[SadGuyWannaDie]

I'm a month past my expiration date(tried to ctb) and currently still in the beating myself up phase. Completely normal even if it's done in a mentally ill way. Didn't want to make it to Halloween I have memories attached to that day but here I am and it looks like I may.

 

[dropdeadfred]

I'm a month past my expiration date(tried to ctb) and currently still in the beating myself up phase. Completely normal even if it's done in a mentally ill way. Didn't want to make it to Halloween I have memories attached to that day but here I am and it looks like I may.

I attempted last month & this month. I feel you.

 

[SadGuyWannaDie]

I attempted last month & this month. I feel you

I saw your recent (final post) thread and I sympathize with you. It's very difficult to feel a failure at life like you need to ctb and then feel a failure at death because you couldn't. I'm in some weird sort of limbo where I binge drink everyday and look back at the SI I encountered after I planned meticulously and failed to follow through. I have a whole list of reasons to go and none to stay but here I am nonetheless.