ArchmagePrincess
Magical Princess of Death
- Aug 31, 2022
- 145
My original plan for attempting to CTB was I wanted an apartment all to myself and using an exit bag there. That way if I failed due to SI or whatever other reason I wouldn't be hospitalized and I could always just try again another time, plus I wouldn't burden any roommates with my corpse. Being incredibly poor and having mental health issues that interrupt working have made living without the support of roommates impossible for a while.
While I think I could eventually after a lot of hard work and more failures have that apartment as a goal, I'm considering just using the small amount of funds I have now to use my exit bag set-up in a hotel room. My fear is if I fail or if room service ignores my "do not disturb sign" as they sometimes do, not only would I experience the misery of a hospital again, but I'd have no resources to try again, and would be kept a closer eye on.
Maybe I'm worrying too much, but the possibility of being sent to the hospital again is a crippling fear of mine. I know it's advised not to be impulsive, but after a recent really bad episode of mental health and being sexually assaulted again I feel like I'm being pushed to act fast before more suffering happens. I feel fairly confident I can set the exit bag up correctly, but I can be pretty clumsy and stupid when it comes down to assembling things, especially when it's high pressure like this.
How risky is CTBing in a hotel really? Are there better hotel chains to pick than others? (I live in the USA) Could I please be pointed in the direction of hotel CTB success/failure stories or resources?
Thank you.
While I think I could eventually after a lot of hard work and more failures have that apartment as a goal, I'm considering just using the small amount of funds I have now to use my exit bag set-up in a hotel room. My fear is if I fail or if room service ignores my "do not disturb sign" as they sometimes do, not only would I experience the misery of a hospital again, but I'd have no resources to try again, and would be kept a closer eye on.
Maybe I'm worrying too much, but the possibility of being sent to the hospital again is a crippling fear of mine. I know it's advised not to be impulsive, but after a recent really bad episode of mental health and being sexually assaulted again I feel like I'm being pushed to act fast before more suffering happens. I feel fairly confident I can set the exit bag up correctly, but I can be pretty clumsy and stupid when it comes down to assembling things, especially when it's high pressure like this.
How risky is CTBing in a hotel really? Are there better hotel chains to pick than others? (I live in the USA) Could I please be pointed in the direction of hotel CTB success/failure stories or resources?
Thank you.