Returned after a year gone from here. Gf of one year left me.

[Brokenanddeadinside]

Came home from work and my gf left and took her things while I was working. She helped me be more stable and gave me a reason to live. We both had similar mental illness and we were very very alike. She had bpd and I'm hoping she's just splitting on me and she will want me back but idk. This shit hurts too much and I can't even talk to her because she's blocked me on everything.

 

[Una Nancy]

I'm in the same situation as you. My SO left me after 3 years together.
Like, everything you describe is the same thing I feel. I've had the feeling I could reconstruct my life during these years together, and we both suffered from depressive episodes. And like you, I'm not allowed to discuss with my SO.

I don't know, I just wanted to tell you that you aren't alone.
I hope we'll find a way to get better.
Stay strong. Love

 

[AlexM]

she's blocked me on everything.

I've been through this shit. We were together for 13 years. Hugs, love

 

[Final Escape]

That sucks, I had a ending to a thing with someone, it abruptly ended a few months ago. Still not over it. Very painful especially in the first month and a half or so. You wish u were dead. I feel like I'll never get over it even if I do. I'll never forget how fucked up I was initially jeez. I have to say I'm not sure it was worth it lol! Even if it was heavenly while it lasted.

 

[NeverMatteredAnyway]

Im so sorry to everyone who also feels this way. Ive never had a healthy relationship. Ive always dreamed of being cared abt, but due to my own dysfunction, Ive only attracted, basically predators. Bc I dont function well 100% alone, I thought turning my head to the lies and abuse for the few mins of companionship was better than the daily sadness of 100% alone. Well, life is more predictable wo him bc I never knew what terrible thing he was going to do lol, I guess that peace of mind is worth something. He'd pick a fight out of the blue when he met a woman he wanted to sleep w for a while. Id let him come n go from my life without protest bc he was so abusive n it wasnt worth the fight.
My point is, maybe revel in the peace of mind that you won't ever be thrown a fkd up curve ball by the one you cherish, as long as youre alone. Try to volunteer snd help homeless ppl and animals. Then you become the rock and have something good to build on that doesnt involve the instability of this other person.

 

[sadgirl2002]

I remember you when I had my old account in August 2018. I'm sorry she left you, I understand about her giving you a reason to live. I know how you feel, I'm going through a similar thing but I can't say it's exactly the same. I have also lost the one I love... the only one who is exactly like me. I hope she comes back, please know that you're not alone. It's so painful and he isn't talking with me either. I hope you will be able to get through this. Stay strong :(

 

[Brokenanddeadinside]

Update: we worked out our problems and are back together. I appreciate all your responses being on this site has helped me a lot.

 

[Deleted member 14573]

Update: we worked out our problems and are back together. I appreciate all your responses being on this site has helped me a lot.

I'm so glad! All the best on your road to recovery!

 

[sadgirl2002]

Update: we worked out our problems and are back together. I appreciate all your responses being on this site has helped me a lot.

I'm so happy that the two of you worked it out! I wish both of you the best :)