Venting Repetitive vent like always

[fleetingnight]

I'm rly sorry I say the same shit all the time. aybe I'll delete this a little later. I just don't want to be here. I don't want to fucking be here. It's an awful awful awful place. I don't want any of this. There's things I want in life, but i dont think it's worth this much suffering. I'll nevr leave though, I can never escape becasue I'm weak and cowardly and stupid as fuck. I can't take pain, so of course I'll never ctb. I guess that suffering out the rest of my life lis a fitting punishment for anasshole like me, I deserve this
Wsted all night, wasted all day, wasted everythiung, I'm just a waste of a human being

 

[iloverachel]

You are always welcome to vent your thoughts and feelings on here and we will always listen without judgement.
I am sorry you are suffering so much, I feel the same, I don't want to be here either, but i can't ctb either so i am trapped in a hellish prison without escape

 

[SilverTiger]

Hello fleetingnight.

I keep saying this to people here, and I will say it to you... The average person shits their trousers at the idea of death and suicide, the mere fact you're here is proof, you are FAR, FAR removed from being cowardly.

You are not trapped in this life, being here is the first step to a better life, either through the will to CTB [like me] or through removing the will to die [like others here.]

Out of curiosity, what spurred you on to make this post, has something happened champ?

 

[fleetingnight]

Hello fleetingnight.

I keep saying this to people here, and I will say it to you... The average person shits their trousers at the idea of death and suicide, the mere fact you're here is proof, you are FAR, FAR removed from being cowardly.

You are not trapped in this life, being here is the first step to a better life, either through the will to CTB [like me] or through removing the will to die [like others here.]

Out of curiosity, what spurred you on to make this post, has something happened champ?

Thank you, SilverTiger That means a lot

Honestly, I'm not exactly sure what caused me to panic so much last night. It was just the same day as every other day's been for ages. I had tons of new work to start and old work to catch up on, and I accomplished only one tiny thing the whole entire day, I procrastinated the rest of the time. I was doing stupid things that don't matter. I always get mad at myself for it, but last night was definitely a bit worse than usual, that's why I (accidentally) spammed the forum a bit. I guess I just hit a breaking point and got overwhelmed with it.

You are always welcome to vent your thoughts and feelings on here and we will always listen without judgement.
I am sorry you are suffering so much, I feel the same, I don't want to be here either, but i can't ctb either so i am trapped in a hellish prison without escape

Thank you so much, I hope we can both stop suffering soon, you deserve better<3

 

[Dark Moon]

I'm in the same situation, I don't want to live but it's hard to die with the lack of options, maybe in the future I will have the courage to go through with it.