gingerplum

gingerplum

Enlightened
Nov 5, 2018
1,450
Hoo boy, these keep getting harder.

Sometime on Sunday evening @mk47 started a post entitled "may CTB tonight." He had massive doses of both Heroin and Clonazepam (a benzo), at 1 gm of each, that he intended to snort.

At 7:06, his final message read:

I just did it
Goodnight friends.

That's a very lethal dose, but I can additionally confirm he has not looked at his phone since then.

MK47 was 22 and lived in the New England area. He was not always what he seemed to be on this forum; he was previously known as @Throwaway9787, and prior to that he was @311 (sorry, mods!). I was under the impression that changing usernames allowed him to dodge a ton of PM's with lots of questions... MK was very knowledgeable.

He was so knowledgeable about drugs, dosing, and sites like Empire on the dark web, other members often sought him out to confer and advise about methodology. He was extremely helpful as well; I know of several members that he took by the virtual hand and led through navigating the entire process, from bitcoin to ingestion.

MK was an expert on "designer" drugs; substances that differ slightly from controlled substances in their chemical structure, yet retain their pharmacological effects. He knew what they were, how to get them, and why they fell into a legal grey area. MK liked his recreational drugs ;).

I stayed in touch with MK on a texting app for over a year; we'd chat and brainstorm and crack each other up. He told me he had chronic neck pain drastically impacting his quality of life, going on for 2+ years. There was no definitive diagnosis, despite his mom being a nurse and evaluations by multiple specialists. He never complained about pain, but he told me it was his reason to CTB.

I was amazed to learn that he had never eaten sushi (!), and his favorite food was strawberry Pop-Tarts.

He was very, very bright; he loved movies, and was a voracious reader.

He instantly made friends with anyone who sought him out.

Please raise a Pop-Tart and remember one of the coolest guys ever on SS, my friend @mk47/@Throwaway9787/@311.
 
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JimFord99

JimFord99

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Aug 18, 2019
1,047
You are not having a good week I guess? I know you take each one very hard as you cared for each one. Sorry to say though, that's the way it is, ginge. Don't take it too hard, OK? I miss them, too.
 
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woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
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May he rest in peace, it is my loss not to have spoken to him except on the boards. I will raise my glass to him, for comradeship in never having eaten a sushi. (This one here likes gaps more than things that exist.)
 
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alexithymia

alexithymia

Student
Sep 18, 2019
176
Thanks for posting these memorials, Ginger. It's very bittersweet to read about the ones who have gone before us, but it's comforting to hear about the type of person they were and the nature of your correspondence with them. I'm glad they're being commemorated.

RIP @mk47.
 
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DeathImminent

DeathImminent

Experienced
Aug 9, 2019
203
Oh i didnt know they were the same person... ill miss him too
 
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Castles

Castles

Member
Oct 7, 2019
61
Never knew him but sorry for your loss my guy
 
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blackflag1

Experienced
Oct 6, 2019
214
I enjoyed his posting and he was a great guy. I am certain he crossed over peacefully and quickly with those doses. He will certainly be missed.
 
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TowerUpright

TowerUpright

Disillusioned
May 26, 2019
602
I liked his posts and conversation. You will be missed.

Also, 1gram of Clonazepam??!! I take 1mg at a time. He definitely wasn't feeling much after he took that.

Peace, Throwaway 9787
 
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Darkhaven

Darkhaven

All i have left is memories
May 19, 2019
979
Yeah, i always enjoyed reading and learning from his posts, specially about "N from A".
They way he talked about the whole process of getting N made me feel positive that i could get it.
It gave me hope.
I also remember that when i joined i used to think the girl he used as one of his accounts profile pic was truly "him".
I only learned that he was a man shortly before he made his goodbye thread, but i always suspected that both "throwaaway" accounts belonged to the same person.
I had the opportunity of wishing him good farewells on his goodbye post, but i take this chance of wishing him peace wherever he may be.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I hope he is hanging out with Blackjack watching us.
 
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Jen0804

Gone
Feb 24, 2019
261
Rest in peace ❤️
He was
So lovely.

I have a candle lit for him and blackjack
 
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sadbunny

sadbunny

Experienced
Jun 7, 2019
249
Oh I know this one. Rip @Throwaway9787 :( @311
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
9,174
So sorry to hear this. I hope he found peace. :hug:
 
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Heart of Ice

Chillin'
Sep 26, 2019
362
Is it the oncoming December or why is everyone turning up dead recently? It's honestly quite depressing logging on here and seeing another goodbye post. Of course I'd expect something like this in a forum like the one we have here, but still.

Anyway, RIP.
 
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welshie84

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Jul 17, 2019
176
Awww :( he will be missed
 
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Deleted member 1465

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Jul 31, 2018
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I didn't know him but sad to hear. Keep posting the memorials if you can manage it, must be tough for you.
 
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JimFord99

JimFord99

Enlightened
Aug 18, 2019
1,047
The bitter reality is: we are here to go, and so we will, eventually. New members will join and the do the same. Hell of a cycle, but that is what it is.
 
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Rachel74

Rachel74

Enlightened
Sep 7, 2019
1,716
Rest in peace ❤️
So many in the last few weeks.
 
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