I am not from an abrahamic religion but kinda from a similar situation. When I was 13 and 14th year of age I used to spend my entire day studying religions, looking at arguments, rebuttals, apologists and it seriously messed me up, soon I realised the amount of flaws in each religious books (of major religions) and also the stupid history behind them and the stupid politics around religion. I also debated my abrahamic "friend" about his religion and he told me to speak to his religious leader and stopped replying me back lol and by the way he started the debate by abusing the jews and the gays out of nowhere in our friend group when we were walking back home from school after an exam. Losing faith is hard, but I am glad I have abandoned it. Religion is basically a method to control and manipulate people.
My entire family believes in stupid logics and 2 of my sisters and mother also believes in a cult. That cult has a human as a god who apparently attained "enlightenment" and unlocked all her "chakras" by "meditation"(She recently died in the 2000's lmao) and people idolize her and worship her pictures and pendants with her pictures. That cult leader has mixed the "teachings" of all religions and cherry picked what suited the agenda of her. They don't associate themselves with any religion and call themselves some bullshit ego stroking name.
I understand your situation, but realize that after dieing there is only abyss. Understand that one day you will have your own money and your family won't have much control over you and you can move out of your hometown for work or study. I hope your parents are providing you with study oppotunities atleast. So just keep faking your faith in front of others, don't show that you are different in faith from them, because they might harm you, and you have to work hard to escape this trap and raise your kids in a non-delusional and non-indoctrinational manner.
Life is cruel, life is unfair and nature is a bipolar bitch.
It is during our darkest times, that we must focus to see the light. –some big brain guy
I hope you work hard and escape and achieve freedom that you deserve and enjoy joys of life like travelling, love, gaming, gym/sports and other hobbies.