my relationship with my gf is barely being held together and it's not helping my SI. i've been suicidal practically my whole god damned life.
i should not have ever gotten into a relationship. ever.
i'm continuously trying my best. and i KNOW with my condition, i should not be allowed to have relationships. of any kind. especially romantic.
i KNOW this. but i let it happen anyway.
when you love someone a lot, and you're young, you tend to forget and then break all of the rules you've made for yourself. the rules i put in to keep me and, well at least those around me safe and content.
i was so stupid. i thought with her i could escape all of this.
we've been having a lot of problems lately. i don't understand them.
— unfinished, like most things i leave —-
i should not have ever gotten into a relationship. ever.
i'm continuously trying my best. and i KNOW with my condition, i should not be allowed to have relationships. of any kind. especially romantic.
i KNOW this. but i let it happen anyway.
when you love someone a lot, and you're young, you tend to forget and then break all of the rules you've made for yourself. the rules i put in to keep me and, well at least those around me safe and content.
i was so stupid. i thought with her i could escape all of this.
we've been having a lot of problems lately. i don't understand them.
— unfinished, like most things i leave —-
