CrazyMary
Student
- Sep 20, 2020
- 135
I was feeling pretty well the second semester of last year, I might dare to say even optimistic about the future. Since then things just got back to hell. I broke up with my partner which wasn´t a bad idea but still hurt. Then most of the few work leads have gone almost all to hell. I have no energy or will to keep fighting for it. Today I just received news that I lost an important trial (the one that caused this downward spiral). I am still going to appeal and still have a little hope. I know that if things go wrong I could be able to pay the worst case scenario but still I am extremely mad and sad with this world. Things just keep getting harder and I am more frustrated with less energy. I will try to stick around until the end of the appeal but man this is getting harder. FOr a few moments I was just thinking of going to the building I have already thought about jumping 13 floors so no survival chance. This world sucks, it´s hard to be optimstic.
I was taking 11 pills at one moment, halcion,rivotril, antidepressant, seroquel and a bunch more. Now I am almost clean just taking a quarter of the smallest paxil, I don´t want to take stuff again, I just want to either things work or just get the hell out of this planet.
I was taking 11 pills at one moment, halcion,rivotril, antidepressant, seroquel and a bunch more. Now I am almost clean just taking a quarter of the smallest paxil, I don´t want to take stuff again, I just want to either things work or just get the hell out of this planet.