ExitTheMatrix
First Time?
- Sep 22, 2020
- 36
I made a phone call at the local psychiatry. I am severly depressed and anxious and on the verge to ctb.
I denied being suicidal and having plans cause I don't want to be forcefully commited.
They called me one hour later telling me they reject my application.
I have alot of mixed feelings. Anger, sadness, hopelessness and dissapointment for being rejected. But also relief that I can go about my suicide plans and they don't even know or care.
So much for calling in at the psychward...Unless you openly tell them you want ctb you wont get any help.
I do want help but at the same time I don't. There is alot of confusing mixed feelings, clogging my mind, making me overthinking, mainly the fact that I was rejected.
Anyone else experienced something similair?
I denied being suicidal and having plans cause I don't want to be forcefully commited.
They called me one hour later telling me they reject my application.
I have alot of mixed feelings. Anger, sadness, hopelessness and dissapointment for being rejected. But also relief that I can go about my suicide plans and they don't even know or care.
So much for calling in at the psychward...Unless you openly tell them you want ctb you wont get any help.
I do want help but at the same time I don't. There is alot of confusing mixed feelings, clogging my mind, making me overthinking, mainly the fact that I was rejected.
Anyone else experienced something similair?
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