I (32f) was supposed to see a specialist so I can get more help for my ASD, but I can't get the tests they want because I can't stay off weed for long enough to do testing. I know this sounds dumb as hell to people without substance issues, but I do not sleep at all off weed. Like literal days with nothing but momentarily nodding off here and there. Sleeping pills don't really work for me.
I also decided I wanted to try dating once more before ctb. I got lots of matches, engaged in a lot of casual sexual contact, and acquired some FWBs, but did not find anyone compatible with me who was interested in a relationship. Anybody who had a brain compatible with my quirks was either poly (I'm monogamous) or not looking for a serious relationship atm. I also had some terrible experiences with men on the dating apps. Overall, I was left feeling like nothing more than an object and it was a great disappointment. Also, hearing about people who had been in relationships for 10+ years only to have their spouse turn around and cheat or walk out or fucking kill them (my friend was murdered by her husband) makes me think it's reeeaaally not worth the potential trauma to be in a relationship.
So, I'm pretty sure I'm back on the path towards ctb. Not really looking for anything from this thread, I'm just kinda screaming into the void because everyone irl can't stand me anymore lol I know a lot of y'all can relate.
I also decided I wanted to try dating once more before ctb. I got lots of matches, engaged in a lot of casual sexual contact, and acquired some FWBs, but did not find anyone compatible with me who was interested in a relationship. Anybody who had a brain compatible with my quirks was either poly (I'm monogamous) or not looking for a serious relationship atm. I also had some terrible experiences with men on the dating apps. Overall, I was left feeling like nothing more than an object and it was a great disappointment. Also, hearing about people who had been in relationships for 10+ years only to have their spouse turn around and cheat or walk out or fucking kill them (my friend was murdered by her husband) makes me think it's reeeaaally not worth the potential trauma to be in a relationship.
So, I'm pretty sure I'm back on the path towards ctb. Not really looking for anything from this thread, I'm just kinda screaming into the void because everyone irl can't stand me anymore lol I know a lot of y'all can relate.
