Help Recovering post attempt feels so isolating, are there any other forums/resources/ or even media out here for people trying to get better?

[Maormer]

I spent the last decade of my life living from one suicide attempt to the next. I had my last attempt a few months ago and I've committed to making sure it will be my last. I'm sure that's not a super unique story here, but its not a story I hear talked about much. When I hear stories of failed attempts in the media I consume or from people around me the story often ends after the person fails or is saved. The days weeks and years after an attempt seem to get far less attention. When I actively planning to end my life it wasn't hard to find online communities full of people talking about the same struggles. It wan not difficult to find media that I felt represented my experience, but now that I'm on the other side of it I find myself feeling more confused and isolated.
It can be exceedingly difficult to learn to live when you've spent so long only ever learning how to die. I don't know how to relearn being a person. I don't know how to imagine a future with myself in it. I don't know how to evens start picking up the mess I've made over the past decade. This small forum on this website is the only place I know of where I can find other people in the same/similar boat as me, but it's also a site full of reminders of exactly what I'm trying to escape from. Are there any other communities for people recovering from suicide? Or even media, movies, books, art, music, videos that do a good job portraying what its like to try to rebuild your life after spending so long dying. I just feel so lost and alone right now and I don't know where to go.

 

[Thia]

I feel like most other suicide forums (e.g. suicideforumdotcom, Beyond Blue, SANE) are geared towards recovery, but I do not have much experience using them personally. I hope other people can pitch in with their ideas.

In the meantime, you may want to hide the suicide subforum here. You can do this in your settings.