recording your ctb

[nightlighter]

I've always had the desire to record myself when i ctb or have someone else do it (id be jumping so its possible passersby record it) but I feel like I'm being somewhat insensitive having this desire, maybe its from all the videos i watch on wpd I want to become one of them but I feel like many would look down on this idea. I'd like to hear other people's thoughts on this.

 

[martyrdom]

Mine is going to be recorded against my will because we have cameras in the house - I don't want it to. Why do you want to do this? Friends and family will be able to see it and re-traumatize themselves over and over.

 

[ilovenewyork]

For SN I think it's valuable to document the attempt so others can get a clear idea of what they're getting in to. Most of the wpd videos end abruptly when the camera falls over etc. We don't know how long they suffered.

I'll likely livestream mine. No friends or family to care

 

[TheEmptyVoid]

I (sometimes) record myself doing methods as a attempt and mostly just testing it, to see how I act when I go unconscious to make sure I don't have to add restraints on me or something, rather than actually having the intent of wanting to die from it, if it was a test, and if I was actually having the intent of wanting to die from the method I will choose, then I will "live stream" it, meaning it is being seen live, instead of someone finding the video footage, not to record it, if in that case.