I personally wish to die because of existence, I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every single way and I'd never wish to exist under any circumstances no matter what, nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this existence, I just have no interest in suffering in this existence in general.
To me human existence just feels like a terrible mistake that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all, I'd always prefer to painlessly die than suffer in this existence just to be tortured dying in agony from old age. For me non-existence truly is all that's desirable and is all I'll ever hope for, only non-existence can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and I've always wished to never exist ever again. I've always wished for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about where there is no more pain, no more suffering, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never burdened with this unnecessary existence of pointless suffering more than anything, I'll always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm
