Reasons for trying?

[Walilamdzi]

I'm wondering if I can numb myself enough to be some kind of empty vessel but just enough for my family. For me this is my only reason now, I don't have any hope for any interest for me.

 

[Acerakis]

I think living only for family might not work out as you would likely build up stress from supporting others. You would probably need to have some form of stress relief to cope.