Reasons for post poneing

[Kitsunefox]

What are they

 

[TiredHorse]

Uncertainty.

Lack of acute motivation.

Utter exhaustion.

 

[NotWorthLiving]

Uncertainty.

Lack of acute motivation.

Utter exhaustion.

Same. Also the fact I didn't get to say goodbye to a few people or get around to writing a note by my initial time.

 

[15dec]

Too many birthdays, special occasions etc that I don't want to ruin for everyone by ctb close to them, not having enough time alone to carry out successfully, and a tiny bit of hope things will get better

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Making plans and getting the necessary supplies.

 

[therhydler]

Fear of pain

 

[Jodes]

If I'm rational and ok, hurting people and potentially damaging their lives forever.

If I'm impulsive, getting saved. Just need time with my tank and I'm gone

 

[Jodes]

Same. Also the fact I didn't get to say goodbye to a few people or get around to writing a note by my initial time.

Would you actually say goodbye in person? And explain things like your reasons?

 

[Othermind]

My mental health hasn't deteriorated enough.
It's getting there though, yesterday I spent the whole day chugging benzos and cutting myself. Totally not going to last another year.
Plus, obviously, it would leave my family devastated and I have a good number of friends who would feel the blow, too. Basically my suicide would hurt a lot of good people that I deeply care for and that's not something you can just hand wave away.

 

[Xerxes]

I'm up and down with urges. Closest I ever came was getting the materials and then driving out to the site of my death, only to have it rain on me. Lighting up charcoal in the rain is futile.

 

[Xaphous]

No need to rush what will be your very last actions. I may choose to live but I will be ordering everything for the SN method regardless.

 

[NotWorthLiving]

Would you actually say goodbye in person? And explain things like your reasons?

I have 1 person I want to say goodbye to in person but I wouldn't tell them the reasons. But I want to like meet them again and say goodbye as if we're gonna meet again but only I'll know that it will be the final goodbye.

 

[Roph]

Too many birthdays, special occasions etc that I don't want to ruin for everyone by ctb close to them, not having enough time alone to carry out successfully, and a tiny bit of hope things will get better

This is partly why I held off during the holidays. I didn't want the holidays to be associated with my suicide.

My mental health hasn't been pushing me to ctb as much as it had. It's started to push again and, with the the holidays over, there's no reason not to ctb.

 

[Jodes]

I have 1 person I want to say goodbye to in person but I wouldn't tell them the reasons. But I want to like meet them again and say goodbye as if we're gonna meet again but only I'll know that it will be the final goodbye.

And you'd explain those in your note(s) instead?

 

[Roph]

And you'd explain those in your note(s) instead?

That sounds like something I would do. I'd seek one last meeting and then write something like, "I'm glad I got to see you a few weeks ago...."

 

[Jodes]

This is partly why I held off during the holidays. I didn't want the holidays to be associated with my suicide.

My mental health hasn't been pushing me to ctb as much as it had. It's started to push again and, with the the holidays over, there's no reason not to ctb.

If you can hold off, is there any overriding reason to CTB right now either? Worth considering since it's final

 

[wanttodie]

Fear of plan not working and and my life not ending when i do it i need die

 

[Roph]

Fear of plan not working and and my life not ending when i do it i need die

^This. When I do it (again), I need to die. This can't be another failure.

 

[Final Escape]

Uncertainty.

Lack of acute motivation.

Utter exhaustion.

This is my reason too. I wish euthanasia was legal in the US for psych disorders.