Caspers
Lost
- Jun 23, 2020
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I'm beginning to think going on or close to my birthday (23rd October) would be a good idea, I remember one user mentioning only having one date to remember you by may be less bad for those effected.
I was hoping to go in a hotel room so my parents don't have a corpse in my bedroom and have cops show up with my message saying I drank SN, but as I am a NEET with almost no social life, that would be suspicious.
I recently decided to give recovery one last try, but the last time I tried it triggered some very bad things, so what's the point? Problem is my brother is about to move abroad with uni, and my death would possibly effect his studies, I feel bad about that. Basically I'm wondering if it's too early, but I also no longer see a future and am coming to accept the bus.
FYI, I am 23 but have many mental health issues including a brain injury that cannot be reversed. I have felt this way since I was 4 and although I will be dying young, I no longer consider recovery possible, also this world is horrible and inhospitable in my eyes. I no longer am able to see the positives in life.
I was hoping to go in a hotel room so my parents don't have a corpse in my bedroom and have cops show up with my message saying I drank SN, but as I am a NEET with almost no social life, that would be suspicious.
I recently decided to give recovery one last try, but the last time I tried it triggered some very bad things, so what's the point? Problem is my brother is about to move abroad with uni, and my death would possibly effect his studies, I feel bad about that. Basically I'm wondering if it's too early, but I also no longer see a future and am coming to accept the bus.
FYI, I am 23 but have many mental health issues including a brain injury that cannot be reversed. I have felt this way since I was 4 and although I will be dying young, I no longer consider recovery possible, also this world is horrible and inhospitable in my eyes. I no longer am able to see the positives in life.
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