gothfairy
sad girl
- Nov 12, 2019
- 64
i went to a party today and my friend got too drunk and spend most of the party throwing up in the bathroom and im emetophobic so i couldnt help her so i was forced to sit with all these other people. i was talking to them and having a good time-ish but just kept disassociating because i'm so fucking depressed and i can't drink to calm down because im sober.
and i kept thinking people were flirting with me but i realized i was just lonely. now im back with my friends at my friends house and my friend is gonna have sex with this guy who is here and they're both drunk and its making me so sad and so alone because i just want to feel something.
ive never been this low. my bestfriend is completely distant from me. its just little things like tonight that can push me near the edge.
i know most people on this site are much older than me and can't relate to my problems as i'm only 18. i just wanted to get them out sorry.
and i kept thinking people were flirting with me but i realized i was just lonely. now im back with my friends at my friends house and my friend is gonna have sex with this guy who is here and they're both drunk and its making me so sad and so alone because i just want to feel something.
ive never been this low. my bestfriend is completely distant from me. its just little things like tonight that can push me near the edge.
i know most people on this site are much older than me and can't relate to my problems as i'm only 18. i just wanted to get them out sorry.