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reekofunpleasant
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- Aug 23, 2024
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Someone I called a friend of mine took advantage of me back in February, but I never blamed her until she told me a month ago she wasn't under the influence. I saw her at the gas station a few nights ago and right there I realized I don't know how to live with myself. I just feel so disgusting. I told my friend what had happened since he was there that night in Feb. but he called me a liar. He didn't believe me. I haven't smoked weed since then, but I tried at a party once again. I just felt disgusting again, it upset me the rest of the night.
What do I do now? I can't talk to my parents, situations are too tense as of right now. In fact I've even been thinking of moving out. But I can't do anything anymore, I can't go out anymore because I'm so afraid of seeing her again, I can't listen to my music anymore since we shared similar tastes, I can't even look at myself naked in the mirror anymore. I can't live like this. I never saw myself as a victim. We were good friends too, since grade 7. I trusted her, I had told her that night my ex had left me. I was vulnerable for the first time in ages, and she fucking raped me when she got me high. I break down a lot now, more than I have in years.
I don't know if I want to CTB yet, but if I do, then I'll choose a method. Advice is welcome.
What do I do now? I can't talk to my parents, situations are too tense as of right now. In fact I've even been thinking of moving out. But I can't do anything anymore, I can't go out anymore because I'm so afraid of seeing her again, I can't listen to my music anymore since we shared similar tastes, I can't even look at myself naked in the mirror anymore. I can't live like this. I never saw myself as a victim. We were good friends too, since grade 7. I trusted her, I had told her that night my ex had left me. I was vulnerable for the first time in ages, and she fucking raped me when she got me high. I break down a lot now, more than I have in years.
I don't know if I want to CTB yet, but if I do, then I'll choose a method. Advice is welcome.