realizing ill never be a boy made me spiral

[wonderfulheaven]

i was having a conversation with another trans friend about dysphoria and i didn't want to shut it down because it's a good conversation to have. it's just unfortunate that it reminded me of an ages old feeling that i've long since pushed down. it definitely contributes to my heavy burden of suffering and i can't kill myself yet, but i will be cutting myself about it

 

[Worndown]

I am sorry self harm is the result of this good conversation. While "being a boy" might be physically unattainable, is there a way to cope successfully through your wardrobe and style?

 

[wonderfulheaven]

I am sorry self harm is the result of this good conversation. While "being a boy" might be physically unattainable, is there a way to cope successfully through your wardrobe and style?

i think as "masculine" as i have attempted to dress, due to my short height and build / softer features i'll always be seen as a tomboy or a girl larping as a boy instead so i get "aww"ed at or treated like an infant regardless. for me personally it's a shame that i do value fashion and enjoy wearing a lot of 'feminine' perceived things because that's just more way to get misgendered. so i basically have to sacrifice either my gender image or my interests if i go outside.

 

[bladeeluvr444]

I understand how you feel it hurts to be trans and realize I'll never fully be a man. much love to you, you aren't alone <3

 

[before20]

Obligatory even the most effeminate pre-transition trans man is more of a man than any cis man, fuck what everyone else says.

Buuut.. same. Knowing I'll never have the male body I want kills me. I'm sorry you have to go through this, OP.