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LaLaL1234
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- Jan 7, 2023
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I'm always wondering that.. am I ready to go?
I had used chocking method in the past 2 times, but failed because of fright. Maybe my failure factor is those attempts were impulsive decision due to stress.
During 4 years, I had medical and mental treatment to get out of depression and anxiety for my family.
I really don't want to make them feel depression so I thought I can learn how to endure distressing by aid of medication and drugs, psychology consultation.
But now I'm so exhausted.. Everything is getting worse no matter how I try. Only fear of seeing my future meeting my end.
This time, I'm planning to use helium suicide method. I didn't buy yet, but those are already in my shopping basket.
Also, I really don't want to damage others especially kids because of my dead body. so I chose the basement of my apartment building.
Now... I feel llke... my brain is already dead and my body is loosing control. Just be encroached on questions like am I really ready to meet the end? What would happen if I failed?
I chose to suicide but also feel afraid of death. so lonely..
Do you guys feel afraid too before decided to suicide seriously not impulsive?
I had used chocking method in the past 2 times, but failed because of fright. Maybe my failure factor is those attempts were impulsive decision due to stress.
During 4 years, I had medical and mental treatment to get out of depression and anxiety for my family.
I really don't want to make them feel depression so I thought I can learn how to endure distressing by aid of medication and drugs, psychology consultation.
But now I'm so exhausted.. Everything is getting worse no matter how I try. Only fear of seeing my future meeting my end.
This time, I'm planning to use helium suicide method. I didn't buy yet, but those are already in my shopping basket.
Also, I really don't want to damage others especially kids because of my dead body. so I chose the basement of my apartment building.
Now... I feel llke... my brain is already dead and my body is loosing control. Just be encroached on questions like am I really ready to meet the end? What would happen if I failed?
I chose to suicide but also feel afraid of death. so lonely..
Do you guys feel afraid too before decided to suicide seriously not impulsive?