ready to ctb

[devil]

I've been putting it off, and trying to put the thoughts aside.. just wishful thinking that everything was going to be okay but of course nothing is okay, I have literally ruined everything good in my life and there's no way to fix it. I just really don't want to be here anymore, and I feel so fucking alone right now. I want the pain to stop, I'm so tired. I have SN just sitting here staring at me, I just want to swallow it and never wake up.

 

[s3gfault]

I've been putting it off, and trying to put the thoughts aside.. just wishful thinking that everything was going to be okay but of course nothing is okay, I have literally ruined everything good in my life and there's no way to fix it. I just really don't want to be here anymore, and I feel so fucking alone right now. I want the pain to stop, I'm so tired. I have SN just sitting here staring at me, I just want to swallow it and never wake up.

Sorry to hear that. Best of luck to you whether you decide to push through or take the leap

 

[devil]

Sorry to hear that. Best of luck to you whether you decide to push through or take the leap ❤

Thank you very much

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Best wishes in whatever you decide to do. There is absolutely nothing wrong with changing your mind. We are here for you.

Feel free to send me a PM any time if you need someone.

Sending love! x

 

[thethatsitboy]

I hope you'll make the best decision for yourself. Be sure about it, preferably.

Sending a lot of love to you!

 

[I screwed up]

Pl remember the option to ctb will always be there ... So don't do anything on impulse. Take care .. Love and hugs

 

[Serenity]

Whatever you choose, I hope it brings you serenity. Best of luck in your decision, the SS community is here for you every step of the way.

 

[NoGlorySoul]

Wanna talk about things that don't seem to be fixable?

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I've been putting it off, and trying to put the thoughts aside.. just wishful thinking that everything was going to be okay but of course nothing is okay, I have literally ruined everything good in my life and there's no way to fix it. I just really don't want to be here anymore, and I feel so fucking alone right now. I want the pain to stop, I'm so tired. I have SN just sitting here staring at me, I just want to swallow it and never wake up.

I just re-read this message and it sounds like something I could have written, word for word. We've been there. Please let us know if we can help in any way.

 

[devil]

ugh I love the SS community, you guys are so understanding and helpful. Thank you for all of your kind, supporting words. I'll make sure I plan out the SN so I don't screw anything up. love u all

Wanna talk about things that don't seem to be fixable?

I just might take you up on that.