Reading about people my age who die by suicide strangely comforts me. Because it means I can do it too

[RevolutionaryRed]

I'm 24. Sometimes I wonder if I'm too young to end it . But reading about others ending it who are around my age group tells me I can be right there with you and it's ok. That's all I want really, assurance.

I'm a loser, I live with my moms. I struggled with depression since I was 11. Been suicidal since 19. Attempted at 22. I missed out on so much and I feel so inadequate. The only thing that's decent in my life is that I've successfully appealed my school suspension and can finally attend college in spring 2022. But I don't know if I'll make it til then . I don't know if I want to

 

[heretogethelp]

I'm 24. Sometimes I wonder if I'm too young to end it . But reading about others ending it who are around my age group tells me I can be right there with you and it's ok. That's all I want really, assurance.

I'm a loser, I live with my moms. I struggled with depression since I was 11. Been suicidal since 19. Attempted at 22. I missed out on so much and I feel so inadequate. The only thing that's decent in my life is that I've successfully appealed my school suspension and can finally attend college in spring 2022. But I don't know if I'll make it til then . I don't know if I want to

I don't know why, but I also find suicide comforting :(

 

[death137]

I'm also 24 and finds ppl suicide comfortable. I get more inspired especially if the person was younger than me and used a violent method.

 

[motel rooms]

There's nothing strange about it. Of course it's comforting to read about people who've managed to successfully end their suffering

 

[ClownMe]

personally, i feel jealous because theyre free and im still living.

 

[heretogethelp]

personally, i feel jealous because theyre free and im still living.

Omg, i feel the exact same way :(

 

[WatermelonMel]

It's reassuring to know that others are in the same position, these forums are reminder that we're not alone.

 

[BottomlessPit]

Glad to know I'm not the only one with this mindset. Knowing there were people at my age successfully killing themselves makes it feel less like a solitary activity.
We are social animals after all, we heavily depend on other people's opinions to regulate our own behavior. If other people in a similar situation to us ctb, then it gives us the reassurance that what we're doing is right and justified.

Just take a look at the Asch experiment.

 

[motel rooms]

personally, i feel jealous because theyre free and im still living.

Don't judge me for what I'm about to bravely share -
I feel quite good when successful people that I don't like die in accidents
I'm a monster, I know, but I'm sure I'm not the only one

 

[Wrennie]

I also find it comforting, as strange as that sounds. Especially if it's someone young and famous, because I think to myself 'hey, if they can do it why can't I?'

 

[deathisnear]

I think about this all the time. I have been suicidal since I was 12, and I also am reassured when I read or hear about successful suicides, and am comforted by the fact that so many have successfully ended their pain. I also get jealous when I hear about successful suicides because I have wanted to for so many years and they are free and I am stuck in my mental hell. I am much older than you are, but there hasn't been one day that's gone by that I haven't wanted to end it and if I could go back, I would have ended it at my first thoughts and saved myself from this hell.

 

[Werewolf.]

Living with your parent(s) even at that age does not mean you are a loser. Also, I am in my mid-twenties, but unlike you, I do feel old.

 

[FuneralCry]

I look at suicide memorials all the time, I see so many people who have ctb, and it reminds me that if things get too bad there is always a way out. That life is only temporary really. I never want to get to old age, it scares me, dying young means I will be young forever.

 

[WornOutLife]

Yes, I guess some people can ctb at any age. Even teenagers do! So heart-breaking but that just proves how much this world and life can suck!

I don't know when I'll leave this goddamn blue rock but I think I don't have many years left.

 

[Bullit]

I remember the day Kobe died. All the news people,all the fans,all the players s etc.,so sad and heartbroken. His poor grieving widow! Me? I found it all very satisfying.
Being so deep in the throes of contemplating my own death,seeing this ubermensch superstar who had everything having it all taken away in an instant, I felt a relief of my own misery and kind of...happy.
Sorry Kobe.